The Fading Star

Saki: The Luckiest Little Sister

Tw: mentioned suicide

I want to be alone.
Alone so that I can process things.

Right now I'm in my brother's room alone with my letter. My parents and the rest of Leo/need wanted to stay with me but I told them to leave me alone.
They respected my wishes and left me alone.
I just don't understand.
How could he be suffering for so long without me noticing?
Wait. Back when I asked him about the cuts on his wrist, did he lie to me? He said that he crashed into some glass doing a cartwheel, I believed it because it sounded like something he would do. If I didn't believe him and confronted him better would this not have happened? Could I have stopped this?
Tsukasa was always there for me when I needed him why was I not there for him?
I started pulling my hair.
SAKI YOU'RE SO STUPID YOU SHOULD'VE TRIED HARDER! YOU SHOULD'VE LOOKED AFTER YOUR BROTHER! YOU DUMB INCOMPETENT POOR EXCUSE FOR A SISTER!

I started crying. Then I remembered the letter Tsukasa wrote for me.
I grabbed the letter.
This letter is the last the thing my brother left me.
My hands were trembling as I opened the envelope and pulled the paper inside of it out.
I took a deep breath before unfolding the paper

"To My Dearest Sister Saki,

I'm sorry that I'm leaving you all alone.
I'm sorry for lying to you.
I'm sorry for being a terrible big brother.
I'm sorry for everything.
I know that this will be hard for you to take in.
But Saki. It isn't you're fault. You had nothing to do with my decision.
I never wanted to leave you all alone.
But then I realized that I wouldn't be leaving you alone.
Mom,dad, Ichika,Honami, Shiho and even Toya will be there for you.
Every day that I was alive made it harder for me to try and stay alive and happy. Eventually just doing simple things like going to school or getting out of bed was hard for me. I tried to live and find reasons to stay alive but I just couldn't.
Voices started to plague my head.
I started realizing things that were so obvious.
I started cutting. My personality changed. I gave into those voices.
The only person to blame for this is me.
But Saki don't worry.
If you ever start to feel lonely just look up at the night sky and I'll be there.
I will watch over you and everyone else.
Remember to take care of yourself.
And remember that I love you Saki.

Your brother,
Tsukasa Tenma"

"At the end of the day you're still the same aren't you? Always caring about others more then yourself."

My brother died and left me all alone.
I hate being alone.
So I should hate him for leaving me.
But if being alive was hurting him.
Then... it's okay.
I'll always be proud of him.
After all, my brother will continue to shine up above.
If he says that he'll watch over everyone then I believe him.

"You don't have anything to apologize for. I am proud to be Tsukasa Tenma's little sister. I couldn't have asked for a better older brother. I'm definitely the luckiest little sister. I can only pray that in the next life I'll be lucky enough to be you're sister again."

Thanks for waiting here's the chapter!
Sorry if somethings don't make sense I wrote this at 11pm.
And surprisingly enough, I passed my exams.
Just saying but every time I see a comment about Saki believing Tsukasa's lie I laugh.
I know that sounds creepy but hey we all have our quirks.
(I promise I don't hate Saki)