DOM & Little Academy 1

16. Recap and then some

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Tiggger's POV

    I feeling weird. My head not all working. I not feel bad, just not normal. Normal would be watching out for traps and animals and danger all the time. But there be no traps here. There be no animals here. Danger? Maybe. I not know yet.

    But all today I told I get to play with friend Sam. And I try. I even let her feed me. She like playing with me. And I like playing with her. But I always watching for danger.

    At first, I thought they make her pet and make her be puppy. I not like that and my heart hurt. Me no can breath when I see that. I member when I was made pet and I not want that again. And I not able to breath and I not feel good and I think her daddy make her be pet. But my daddy yell at me and say she no pet. He make me look at her. I not want to, but he made me. He say "No caller, no leash." And I see none. And he say that she playing. That she using her imagination to pretend to be puppy.

    That's when I remember daddy Ty show me book that say imagination is something people do to pretend to be something else. You can pretend to be a dragon and fly around. Or you can pretend to be in one of the cars he got me. Or you can pretend that you a baby and have someone else take care of you. That what I doing. I pretend that I a baby so others not be scared of me. But I liking being the baby too. So am I still pretending if I like it?

    After lunch daddy J tells us that we have a new rule in the play room. I been here before with him. This a weird but fun room. He tells us that we no get to walk in this room today. We can only crawl. And him and all the rest are all on there hands and knees already. Then Sam look really happy untill she look at me. But then she smile again and she get on her hands and knees too. This must be pretend. We all pretend that we all little babies today. If they all doing it then it not a trap for me. And I joined them.

    After we pretending and playing a while daddy J go to Morph and say that he need brake. He gets in grandpas lap and starts drinking a bottle. I just watch him because I not understanding what's going on. I know he not a baby, and he pretending. But something feeling odd in me. I want to be there in grandpa's lap and having a bottle. He not supposed to be there, I am. And it make me feel weird.

    But then, he get down and go back to playing with others. Then the weird feeling goes away and I start to play again. But then Sam goes to grandpa and he takes her to another room. At first that odd feeling comes back. But then when they come back I notice that she needed a change and that odd feeling disappeared. He was helping her like he would help me. And I ok with that.

    Later daddy talks to me about "Quit pretending to play and have fun. And just have fun." He say that I no need to pretend and that grandpa is watching out for all of us. That I can relax here and not worry about anything right now. No traps, no animals to watch out for. And no danger. They all watching out so I not have to. I no have to pretend to be baby and watching out for stuff. I can just play and have fun.

    I look around and see that mommy and my daddies are all watching and playing. I see that Grandpa is watching everyone including me. They all watching out so I not need to right now. I safe here. I protected here. I know this place and these people. Nobody will get past them. So I can relax here. After I think about it I go and try to play for real.

    At first it hard. Letting my guard down and really trying to play and have fun. But then Blacky say that I safe and that she wants to play with me for real. No pretend to play, but real play. And I see something she wants to play with. So I grab that toy and start to play. Then we get tired of that toy and try to get another toy. But I not work right and I can't reach it. But then something really big moves that toy to me and I start to play with it.