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𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞, 𝐍𝐂
𝙺𝙰𝚂𝙸𝙼 𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙻𝙻𝙴 𝙿𝙾𝚃𝚃𝚂 | 𝙺𝙰𝚂
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Its been a few days since my mama been back and that situation with Samora.

She been calling a nigga, but I just decline her calls.

Next time she call me, I'm just gon block her.

Ion got time for her shit no more.

I love her, and she don't even give a fuck so its whatever at this point.

My mama and sister been doing everything together these past couple of days.

I haven't seen her smile and laugh like this in a long time.

I was happy my mama was bringing this side out of her.

After the abuse, I didn't think she'd ever be herself again.

Shit, I wouldn't blame her if she wasn't.

Sexual assault, rape allat really leave a mark and its hard as fuck to forgive and move on.

Especially because it was by the hands of people who was supposed to love and care for us.

Shit wild.

My mama convinced me to let Ky stay; she was renting out a room from my moms until she got on her feet.

Ion know why she even up here...I just hope it ain't to try and get me back cause that's never going to happen.

Won't even fuck girly, she really did me dirty.

She used to take advantage of me and shit, knowing I wouldn't turn her down when it comes to sex since she made me believe nobody would care about me since I was "damaged goods."

Basically saying since I was molested, nobody would care or love me like she do.

And when I didn't wanna fuck her cause I was still so traumatized, she'd make me feel guilty then blame me for her cheating and shit.

But she knew how traumatized I was and how difficult it was to even feel comfortable enough to have sex.

She just leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

$$$

"Kazzy can we talk?" I looked up and seen Ky'mani standing in front of me.

I frowned up my face, ain't nobody call me that shit but her.

"About what Ky'mani?" I looked at her with distain all over my face.

She sighed, "I just need to get some shit of my chest,"

I mentally rolled my eyes but led her back to my bedroom.

She was older than me by 2 years but I swear she was the most immature mfer I ever met.

Worse than Karri's ass.

"What?" I looked at her as she took a spot on my gaming chair.

"You look good," she mumbled.

"Thank you, get to the point Ky."

"I just want to apologize about everything... from cheating on you, making you feel you were at fault for not wanting sex. Just everything, I'm really sorry and I'm just hoping you can forgive me."

She was playing with her fingers when she spoke, sum she used to always do when she was nervous.

I just thought for a moment, its been years and I was over the shit she did so fuck it.