Junker Queen Oneshots

Fight

~TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES AND ATTEMPT AT SUICIDE~

I was laying in bed for the third day in a row without getting up only to use the bathroom and to nibble on something small. My appetite was gone and everything that would get me hungry would make me sick to my stomach. Odessa was gone, but not gone gone. She was still in Junkertown, but busy with things she needed to do. The others from the warehouse asked me where I've been, but I haven't answered them when they called my name from the bottom of the house.

Closing my eyes, I tried to sleep away the overwhelming whispers that were growing louder and louder, becoming screams and haunting laughter. Curling up into a ball, I pulled the covers over my head, hoping that it would shield me from the negative thoughts swirling around in my mind. Squeezing my eyes tighter, all I could imagine was the feeling of me drowning. My eyes were open, seeing the surface, but no one was coming to save me. Reaching my hand, expecting someone to reach in and grab me out of these tides, no one was there to save me. It was helpless. I was helpless.

"Y/N? Y/N? Y/N!"

I was pulled out from the water and it dripped down my face. Starting to cough and spit up the water that made its way into my lungs, I took in a deep breath. Moving my hair away from my face, I looked over to see who saved me. Odessa was kneeling beside me, a very concerned look on her face that was mixed in with sadness. Tears were forming in her eyes as she pieced together what had happened while she was gone. I don't even remember coming to the bathroom and filling up the bathtub to dunk my head in. I just gave Odessa a blank expression as she pulled me into a hug, her shoulders trembling.

"Love, what on earth were ya doin'?" she asked, trying to push down the sobs that were threatening to come up.

Hearing her have such concern in her voice mixed in with trying to compose herself, I lost it. I buried my face in her shoulder and wrapped my arms around her tightly, crying.

"I-I-I'm so sorry, Dez," I sobbed, clinging onto her shirt. 

"Baby, baby," she pulled away to see the waterfall of tears. She placed her hands on my cheeks, trying to wipe them away, but it was futile. I reached up, grabbing her hands as she just held me there.

"I'm so sorry, Dez," I croaked out, trying to avoid her eye contact.

"Oh, baby," she pulled me into another hug, her hands running up and down my back. "I'm so glad I came to check in on ya."

"W-What do ya mean?"

"Meri and Geiger came to me today saying they were worried about ya. I was worried about ya, too, but with everythin' I had goin' on, I couldn't check in on ya as much as I wanted to. I'm just glad I came when I did. I-I don't know what I would have done if I came too late."

Her voice alone was enough to get me to stop crying on a normal day, but today wasn't a normal day. I needed all of her and to know she was scared to lose me and was always going to look out for me, it was enough. She was enough for me. For the longest time, I didn't feel like I was enough in the world. That's why I overworked myself to the point of feeling burnt out. I always overachieved when completeing a custom weapon for someone to where they complimented my work, but never knew the countless sleepless nights I pushed through to get it done on time. However, only Odessa knew the pain I put myself through of going days without sleeping and or eating to get work done. I was even like that in the Wastelands when we were working on her magnetic gauntlet.

"Princess," she whispered in my ear after I had calmed down a bit. "Whatever you're thinkin' in that pretty little head of yours, either it's good, bad, or down right terrible, know this," her grip around me tightened. 

"I am always and I mean always gonna be here for ya. No matter what you're goin' through, I want to be 'ere with ya. I want to see you struggle because if I see ya struggle, I know when to come help ya. If I don't see ya struggling or ya don't tell me, I can't help ya in time. And I want to be able to catch ya when you fall. I-I want to be 'ere for ya, princess. You were there when I needed ya," she nuzzled her cheek against mine. "I want to be 'ere when you need me."

Sniffling quietly, I pulled her closer to me, wanting to feel her warmth and her strong, comforting arms. I buried my face in her shoulder and quietly whimpered to myself. She reached up and ran her hand through my hair.

"Shh, shh, princess," she cooed.

"I'm so sorry, Dez."

"I'm 'ere. I got ya," she said and stood up, draining the bathtub before walking over to the bedroom, sitting down on the edge of it. "I know at times ya don't feel like fightin' everyday and even gettin' up at times is a struggle. But if we're 'ere together, we can do anything we want, princess. If ya need me to, I'll take ya wherever ya need to go and I'll stick with ya. I won't leave your side, but there will come a time where ya need to fight on your own. That doesn't mean I won't come back to ya. But after seeing what happened today, I want to stick close by."

"I-I wouldn't mind that," I said.

"I know ya don't. But I want to see my princess fight whatever's goin' on inside of ya."

She pulled away and placed her hand underneath my chin, looking into my eyes.

"And I'll be 'ere every step of the way."

Tears filled my eyes once more and she placed her forehead against mine. Letting out a sigh, she reached up and placed her hands against my cheeks.

"I hate seein' ya like this, princess. It scares me."

"I'm sorry."

"You don't need to be," she said and placed a light peck to my lips. "Ya can't help it at times. I've had my worst days, too. Like when my siblings and my father died. I didn't want to go on, but I had to for 'em. But seein' how ya are today, I want to fight whatever is botherin' ya, even if I can't see it."

A smile formed. It was a smile only she was able to form when I was at my lowest point in my life. I loved that about her along with everything else.

"There's that smile," she said, pecking my lips once more, causing me to smile more. "Atta girl. Fight it."

"I have the strength when I'm with ya, Dez."

"Then I won't ever leave your side."

A/N: Anyone else have Junker Queen as their comfort character? Or is it just me?