Chasing Cars

Chapter 22

"Meredith, sweetie. We got your scans." Bailey said as she walked into the room, followed by Richard and Dr Swender

"It's not good.. isn't it?" Meredith looked up at the three, immediately noticing the big frowns that were projected on their faces.

"No." Richard shook his head. "Your cancer seemed to be spread all the way to your stomach and ovaries."

"Her ovaries?" Derek gasped. "On the ultrasound you said her stomach only-"

"I'm sorry.." Bailey sighed

"Dr Grey, we want you to start on a higher dose of chemo. Although there's good news. The cancer in your breast is completely gone while the tumor in your armpit is almost shrunken completely." She softly smiled

"This last tumor will shrink as well." Derek tried to calm her down

"You don't know that. I need to update my will.. Lexie is probably still in it." She whimpered in Derek's arms

"We'll give you a minute. Meanwhile we'll go get your new chemo ready." Richard squeezed her shoulder softly

"I wanna see Maddie grow up.." Meredith whispered

"You will. Everyone will do their best to make you better, Mer." Derek kissed her head

Hours later they had hooked up Meredith's new round of chemo. This time it was even stronger so Derek had insisted she'd sleep as long as possible. She had woken up when the chemo started dripping as she felt the liquid burn inside of her body, as if she felt it running through her veins

Derek was watching her sleep, hoping she'd sleep as long as possible so she wouldn't be focused on how she was laying here. He hoped the time would pass by quickly, he just wanted to take her home and make things just a little better

"Derek?" Richard knocked on the door

"Wait, I'm coming." Derek didn't wanna exit the room but he didn't wanna risk waking her up. So he got up and walked out of the room, waiting just next to the door

"Has she been asleep the whole time?" Richard asked as he looked through the window

"Yeah, luckily. I want her to sleep as much as possible. I'm scared she'll feel sick in a few hours.." Derek sighed, feeling very vulnerable right now

"Karev is still looking after Maddie but Adele and I can take her for the night if you'd like." Richard offered

"Thanks, Richard but I think Meredith wants Maddie at home. Honestly I think all three of us need some quality time." Derek deeply sighed, feeling the urge to go back to check on Meredith.

"Go. I know you wanna sit with her. Page if you two need anything and we'll make it work, Derek." Richard squeezed his shoulder

"I will." He nods and walks back inside, hearing Meredith moan in pain. "Hey, shh. You're fine."

"Wanna go home.." Meredith whispered. Derek held her in his arms, helping her sit up a bit more as her skin got slightly pale. "I- I think I have to throw up.."

"Okay Okay." Derek held her in his arms, grabbing a bowl in case she'd have to throw up. He gently massaged her back while Meredith tried to focus on her breathing

"I just want this to be over.." Meredith whimpered in Derek's arms and felt more uncomfortable each second. "Der-" She tried to warn him but was too late. She threw up all over herself

"It's okay-" Derek quickly held the bucket in front of her as she threw up. He patiently waited until the heaving started to slow down. "Okay, let's get you cleaned up." He said and carried her to the bathroom, placing her down on the ugly shower chair, careful with her IV as he cleaned her up

"It smells.." Meredith complained about the smell of vomit that was currently making her sick again while Derek undressed her

"I know. I got your favorite soap with me. Lavender." He winked and grabbed some soap, his own clothes completely wet as he had jumped in the shower with her

"Hmm.." Meredith nods, feeling herself droop in the chair as her energy dropped

"Hey, stay up just a little longer, love." Derek said and cleaned her up, then stripping off his own close and cleaning himself quickly to make sure the smell would be gone. Once he stopped the shower he covered her with towels to keep her warm. "Stay here, I'm gonna grab you some fresh clothes." He said and quickly ran off, opening the window of the room to let the smell disappear

"Der-" He heard Meredith's soft whimpers and made his way back to the bathroom, kissing her bald head and then changing her

Derek dressed her in layers of clothes, hoping to keep her warm that way. He slipped a pair of fuzzy and warm socks over her feet and covered her head with a scarf

"Try to sleep. You have about an hour to go and then I'll take you home." Derek lifted her to the bed and tucked her in. "I love you.." He quietly whispered, not sure if she had heard it and if it was the right time to say this

"I love you too." Meredith whispered and drifted off

Derek had his girls back but now it appeared Meredith's cancer spread even more than they could have thought and he was terrified to lose her again, but this time for real

Thanks to my co-writer _Ktje_