bits and pieces

°• I need your heart, mine is yours •°

Felix had admired Hyunjin for three years now.

At first he passed it on as nothing but a measly crush for the man that everyone, and every living thing on this planet, adores.

He was everyone's dream guy, he was the type to give you flowers for absolutely no reason at all, to take you home to your mama right before curfew and dance with you under the moonlight.

He was such a dream, but somehow, he took home in Felix's nightmares.

It terrifies him how Hyunjin is everything that he hates in a person, yet he's also all Felix ever wanted.

Hyunjin was a senior at his university, the typical senior that had managed to capture everyone's heart by his lovely characteristics, undeniable charms, backed up by his good nature.

He's smart, he's good at sports, funny, kind, artistic, you name it, and it was probably Hyunjin.

He also loves parties a lot, a very extroverted person that gets along with everyone. The life of the party, as they would say.

I think you get it from here, with all the praises and good qualities Felix just listed, he's the type of guy you can take home to your father even though you just met him for five minutes.

Hyunjin is just so perfect, and Felix hates it. He hates perfect.

It started out as a mere curiosity that grew overtime as Felix got to know Hyunjin better by observing him like a damn lab rat.

He watches how he handles problematic situations carefully, smartly solving misunderstandings, how he chooses to see good in people, how he never judges and how he is always on the go when someone needs his help.

It's just amazing to him how Hyunjin could be this wonderful of a person even without these judging eyes.

He especially loves how Hyunjin becomes sweeter and more attentive when he's surrounded with people he cares about.

Nope, don't get him wrong, he's not a stalker or anything. They share the same group of friends, allowing him to at least be at arms length away from Hyunjin, although they don't have a tight relationship like everyone else in the group.

They talk occasionally , walk together occasionally , and sit with each other occasionally . A rare occasion since Felix is awkward and barely manages to say a word. But it makes it even better since Hyunjin would always manage to be patient with him and understand him even if he barely opens his mouth to make a sound and maybe... just maybe, that's how it all began.

The first time he realized it, his toes were just dipped into the pool of his emotions, barely feeling anything, but before he knew it, he was already fully submerged into this crazy shit, and he keeps on falling, deeper and deeper.

Felix was stupid and he fell hard, and he found himself enjoying the journey to the ground.

Felix felt so strongly for him that he might actually explode one day.

However, he never planned to tell him. He just wants to admire Hyunjin from afar, like how the flowers love the sky.

He would say he was doing a good job at hiding his feelings, being able to love Hyunjin without anyone else knowing aside from the God above that he prays to, since Hyunjin was always in his prayers.

He wanted to congratulate himself but his heart cries every time the upcoming graduation comes to mind.

Ever since the older male told them about his plans of settling down in another state, seeing as the company he had his internship before offered him a permanent position in a condition that he gets transferred to the main headquarters, which was miles and miles away from Felix.