bits and pieces

•deep end•

the shorter pressed the muzzle of his pistol right at hyunjin's temple, his finger hanging loosely at the trigger.

he was sitting right at the other's torso as he pinned him down on the ground.

yet all he could see is the slow forming curve of hyunjin's lips as it broke into a smile, "you're so beautiful, felix." he says, reaching up to brush felix's cheek with his bloodied hand.

"I should've killed you a long time ago." the shorter pressed the gun more firmly on the other man, pulling the safety down to tell him that he was serious.

"we both know you can't do it, darling," the taller's hand slowly glided down to his neck, massaging the sides. "you're too soft - too weak for me."

felix began to tremble as hyunjin's hand went over his sides, then eventually found his ass, softly patting the soft flesh.

"you're so stupid to fall in love with someone like me." hyunjin says, pulling felix by his head to get their faces to come closer, "I'm not gonna do you good even if I let you scream my name over and over as I fuck you deep,"

he kisses him. teeth and tongue. dirty and wet.

"I can only pleasure you, but I can't give you what you want," he pulls the younger's head on the side slightly, creating a space for him to attack. "I'm not made for loving."

felix knew, yet he couldn't help but shiver every time hyunjin would pull him aside to have him surrender through intimate touches. he couldn't help but turn his back to his country that he swore to protect, always ending up swallowing his oaths as he let the ruthless criminal get away with nothing but a bruised lips from kissing him hard.

he knew he's nothing to hyunjin but an escape route, and yet he fell in love anyway.

he was weak and soft, exactly like hyunjin said.

"let the gun go, baby. let me please you." he coaxes, his other hand sliding so gingerly over the entirety of felix's arm until it reached the gun in his hand.

felix's breathes were heavy and deep, feeling as every touch hyunjin makes in his body burns his lungs.

"you don't need this." he says, throwing the gun somewhere before resuming with what he was doing, tearing felix's uniform apart so he could free up more skin for him to mark.

"you're right," felix said over a pant, "I'm indeed too weak. I can never kill you." he pushed forward to press his mouth with hyunjin's who didn't hesitate to reciprocate.

the shorter pulled away, then he smiled, "that's why I brought people who could do the job for me."

instead of being surprised, hyunjin only laughed at him, "go ahead, end me." he nods, "I knew about your little sniper friend hanging around in the other building from the east, baby. you're not as slick as you wished to be."

he pulled him in one more time to smash their lips together for the last time, "I'll see you in another life, darling."

"Wha-!"

blood came splattering all around as a bullet successfully pierced its way through hyunjin's head. felix's face was painted red, his clothes and his hands are in no better condition.

"no, no, no!"

it's not how he wanted it to end. it was never in the plan to let hyunjin go with a smile on his face. he wanted to see some sort of emotion from him, even a hint of betrayal, at least to have him gain the sanity he had sucked away from felix, and yet he still got to do whatever he wanted until the end.

"no, you can't leave me like that, that's not fair!"

his breaths grew shorter with every heave of his chest. his mind is in shambles.

he refused to be hyunjin's escape route even to death.

felix frantically searched for something, and with shaky hands, pointed the gun to his own head, "I'll see you in another life," he closed his eyes, feeling as his tears trickled down on his cheeks, "wait for me."

*bang!*

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