amourotic ~ 𝘏𝘓

1. return to hogwarts.

{trigger warnings: explicit language and brief mentions of death.}

Needless to say, the train journey to Hogwarts was just as daunting as I would've expected it to be. The time had arrived for me to face my second year of Hogwarts, and I was now attending as a sixth year, and with the events of my previous year still fresh in my mind, I was dreading to see what this year would entail.

I'm not sure why i'm so paranoid for my return, it's not like it could possibly be any worse than my first fifth year. I was just thankful that everybody got out alive, well almost everybody..

The image of professor Fig's death clouded my mind just as it had every night for the span of the summer break, and I couldn't help but feel unfathomably guilty. Maybe if I hadn't had dragged him into the whole Ranrok ordeal, perhaps he'd still be alive..

Then there was Lodgok, maybe if he hadn't helped me.. maybe he wouldn't have died by my side also..

Maybe if they'd never met me? The only person who should've faced the consequences was me.

Nowadays it seems as though everybody I care about is at risk, all because of me.

I remained deep in thought, drowning out all the voices of the students right up until the train came to a halt, suddenly I was snapped back to reality as i felt someone shaking my body vigorously.

"Viola? Vioolaaa?!" the voice spoke as a hand waved in front of my face.

"What?" My voice came out as a whisper, but i immediately realised who it was as i realised I was in the Feldcroft Region" oh.. hey Sebastian." I faked a smile as the brown haired boy sat adjacent to me on the seats within the compartment.

"How was your summer break?" he questioned, almost sounding genuinely interested.

I parted my lips to speak but nothing came out, I instantly pressed them back together and just nodded slowly, i turned my head towards the door of the private compartment. I rested my head on the seat and clenched my eyes shut, it was clear to me that i wasn't going to be able to get any sleep, peaceful sleep atleast.

Ever since Sebastian had taught me the killing curse 'avada kevadra,' my mind had been overrun with feelings of guilt and regret. Perhaps I was wrong to kill all of those goblins and poachers, they were just doing what they thought was right.. At that point, I was just as bad as Ranrok himself, killing anybody who got in my way, and that was truly unforgivable.

* * *

Several hours had passed and now I was victim to the same vigorous shaking just as i had been hours prior. "Sebastian?" I spoke in an agitated tone, it was obvious to anybody with eyes or ears that I was clearly in a foul mood.

Sebastian gulped as he wasn't eager to be on the receiving end of my bad attitude, he spoke cautiously "I- Um- I just wanted to let you know that we've arrived.."

I slowly lifted my head up and peered out of the window, surprisingly a smile grew on my face as I saw the only place I was ever actually able to call home. Perhaps things would be better this year, how I hoped it was going to be better, although this was highly unlikely due to my tendency to adventure into places i'm not supposed to.

* * *

The sorting ceremony had just finished when I was on my way to the Slytherin common room, I mumbled the password as i buried my hands inside the pockets of my cloak. The large silver snake slithered up from seemingly nowhere, revealing the entrance the the room.

I made my way down the almost neverending staircase and walked towards my dorm room, but I froze in my path as i heard a familiar voice call out from across the room.

"Viola? That is you, isn't it?" The deep male voice questioned as he stood up, the voice becoming clearer as he made his way towards me.

"Ominis!" I let out an excited squeal as I spoke his name, i lunged myself forwards wrapping my arms around his large torso, tightening my grip accordingly.

The slender man smiled as he wrapped his arms around the small of my waist, resting his head on top of mine, in this moment I couldn't help but officially feel like I was home.

Ominis was the only person who fully knew everything and stood by me through the entirety of it, even though he disagreed deeply with my decisions, he never once left. He was the one who comforted me after Sebastian used the cruciatus curse against me in Salazar Slytherin's scriptorium.

I knew Sebastian was only going as far as he did in order to save his sister, Anne. But it was blatantly obvious that anyone in his way was nothing more than an obstacle to him.

Ominis may have been blind, but I well and truly felt as though he was the only person who truly saw me for who I really was, I felt as though Sebastian only truly cared when I was of use to him and Anne, and that feeling caused nothing but despair and embarrassment on my behalf.

I hesitantly pulled back from Ominis, turning my eyesight up toward him. "How was your summer break?" I questioned, wondering how he had coped after the events that transpired.

He let out an exasperated sigh "It was okay, I suppose, I couldn't bare the thought being near my family any longer than I had to be, and your summer?."

Just from that, it became clear that we both suffered from shitty so-called breaks.

"It was-" I hesitated, should I burden him with the truth or let him believe that there was nothing for him to stress over? "good.." I mumbled.

I couldn't bare the thought of lying to him, but I didn't want to worry him with issues that were beyond his control.

He raised an eyebrow at my brief pause in between sentence, he nodded slowly and forced a small smile, it was clear he knew i wasn't telling the truth, but he knew better than to bring it up.

"Sit with me?" He asked as he straightened up his posture, reaching out his hand towards me.

"Of course" I spoke as I placed my hand on top of his palm.

Ominis lead me towards one of the couches in the open floored room and sat down stretching his legs out over the little space the couch offered.

I stumbled up onto the couch and rested my body in between his legs, I rested my head backwards on his toned chest and allowed him to play with my hair as we sat together alone in the moonlit common room.

He ran his fingers through my long, dark hair as he softly hummed a melodic tune in my ear.

Ominis never failed to cheer me up or calm me down, hearing the soft tone of his deep humming was one of the only things that actually managed to send me to sleep.

I rolled over to my side, remaining in the middle of  his legs, I buried my head into the crook of his neck, barely just in time for everything to fade into complete and utter darkness whilst drifting off to the sound of him.