[FreenBecky] When life hits love, sometimes you die

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

It's been a couple days now, since Becky had her last encounter with Nop. She hadn't heard from him after that. The first 3 days she was happy about it. But on the 4th day, she began to worry.

In just 2 days Becky and Nop would get married. But Becky called it off, she let everyone, that was gonna attend the wedding, know that it got cancelled.

She got a lot off questions asked about it, but she just kinda avoided giving them a whole answer. The truth wasn't pretty, she didn't wanna be the bad guy in everyone 's life.

She decided that she would visit her apartment today. She needed her clothes and she needed to check up on Nop. They needed to talk this through. She couldn't just pack her stuff and leave. It was far more complicated than that.

When she was about to enter her apartment, nerves settled into her stomach. She hesitated to insert her key.
Why? For many reasons...

She took a deep breath and entered. The apartment was chilly and kinda abandoned. There were beer bottles and dirty plates everywhere. The smell that intruded her nostrils was disgusting.

That's when she heard some light snoring coming from their bedroom. He's still sleeping, probably because of his hangover.

Suddenly she felt guitly... Was this because of her that he drank himself asleep? Was it because of her that he needed alcohol to feel beter? Probably stupid questions, she knew the answer to them. It was because of her.

He was happy before all of this happend. And she took away that happiness by breaking his heart in the worst possible way, by cheating.

How could she ever have done this... She didn't wanna do this. It was not something she intended on doing, it just happend. Her feelings were more stubborn then her head was. This time her heart really won.

Her heart belonged to Freen, it always did and it always will. That was clear now.

After their break-up, 7 years ago, Becky closed of her heart for a very long time. In that time, it was to painful to let anyone back in. She didn't have any space in her heart beside the sadness of losing her soulmate.

She grieved, eventhough Freen never died. But to her, she actually did at the end. Freen wasn't her Freen anymore due to the depression. It took a toll on her too, almost swallowing them both.

When Freen's parents died, she truly hit a low point in her life. Becky was there to catch her and help her through the worst moments.

But Becky being there, didn't bring her parents back. Freen suddenly lost two of the most important people in her life, without having the chance to say goodbye. She never really got over it during that time.

Is it even possible to get over something like that? She guessed not, it was more of getting to learn how to live with the void. But Freen never got passed the void. It swallowed her until it fully consumed her.

It was hell, seeing her lover slowly deteriorate. While she couldn't do anything about it. She tried, but she just couldn't do it alone. Her darkness was contagious and effected Becky too. That's when she decided it was time to make a change after one and half year off this.

She blamed herself for not being able to heal her girlfriend. She felt like she was never enough for Freen to get better. It was all to painful. She needed to leave, for herself and for Freen.

They were soulmates that met at the wrong time. But they have another chance now and Becky took it with both hands, both feet and everything in between. She won't ever let go of her soulmate again, even when time would get hard. She promised.