Tug Of War - DC
This is where I deserve to be.
Lost in my own story.
Trapped in my own series's.
Stuck writing new chapters.
Flawed but still moving after.
I've seen the light.
I've embraced the fight.
Replaced my eyes to have sight.
Avoided the gun, but had trouble with the knife.
I love but I'm never right.
I'm playing tug of war.
Playing games wishing I was a star.
Glory and riches are only subpar.
Equality and suffrage, ploys out in this bar.
I struggle to be okay.
But you didn't need to know that anyways.
They don't care about the bill they pay.
Or the games they play.
They only see what they sought, until they give way.
Living with images of better days.
Past and new.
I dream of go back to those happy days, where we could sit through.
And watch the world pass us by.
But I guess we should just say goodbye.
Time passes and we grow apart but I'm afraid.
Times against us, they don't know all I've paid.
I'd lose everything under my name, just to keep you from the grave.
I'm so tired.
Tired of playing tug of war.
We grow still.
and lose all will.
Alone in my head.
But the voices are against me.
I walk on these tightrope, floating on this trapeze.
One wrong step and it's the death of all my empty deeds.
I've been wishing I could escape this fantasy.
Welcome myself back into reality.
A shadow of my past self.
I only cause trouble, it's a pity.
My past memories haunt me.
Embracing the embarrassing.
It's truly a calamity.
That's the internal struggle.
Imagine fighting but you're stuck in the rubble.
Can't escape as the world around you starts to crumble.
Piercing your personal bubble.
I keep dying my sleep.
Get called on, just to leave my seat.
The past me was an atrocity.
Wanted to be more, devoid of all gravity.
They don't see it.
The way I place tug of war.
The way I hide behind masks of bliss.
Putting on false smiles before the evident fall.
It's me against the world.
And I'm first on call.
