Haikyuu Imagines

Kuroo - Diary of Kuroo (Angst to Fluff)

The first time I met you, it was when my friend said he wanted to introduce me to his girlfriend. I could tell in a glimpse that you were dragged by your friend as well. Unlike your friend, you were quiet and was busy avoiding eye contacts. Your relationship with your friend was just like me and Kenma. But that was it. I thought that I would probably not meet you after this interaction, but surprisingly we became classmates the next year.

I naturally got to see you more often and got to know you better. You were shy and the type to worry about others before yourself. That made me interested in you that I continued to approach you. You always turned bright as an apple and I found that adorable. I think that was the reason why I joked around you more often. Maybe it was thanks to that you seemed to be opening up to me slowly and began to smile at me. We became closer, but your cheeks continued to turn like an apple.

That's when I knew about your feelings for me. You had feelings for me. I didn't know how I felt about you that I avoided you. I ended up hurting your feelings. As I continued to avoid you since I couldn't sort out my feelings yet, your eyes continued to follow me around with pain. It became a daily thing for me to avoid your eyes. Naturally as time passed, we grew distant to each other. However, even as we grew apart, I still could not sort out my feelings. The only thing I understood was that I hated this situation.

The time I finally sort out my feelings was that day. When you were alone in the classroom after class. I remembered I left something in the classroom, so I had to go back to the classroom just to see you sitting near the window alone. The way the sunset was enveloping your form, the sight alone made me planted to where I was standing. As I stood there for god how long, I was brought back to my sense at your voice calling out to me. "What are you doing here, Kuroo?"

"U-Uh... I forgot something..." I shuttered as I rubbed the back of my neck in nervousness.

"Oh... Okay, you should find it and leave soon, the doors will be locked soon," you said as you packed your bags and began to walk out the classroom.

Even after you were out of my sight, my heart could not stop beating fast as if I ran a marathon. I quickly grabbed what I came back for and rushed towards you. Thankfully you were still by the gate.

"Y/n!" You turned around in confusion as you stared at me. "Let's go home together..."

Your face turned from confusion to unsureness as you slowly averted your gaze. "Is... Is that okay with you...?"

My heart was instantly filled with guilt at your hesitation. "I want to walk home with you."

You nodded slowly and we began to walk home just like how we used to before.

This was the moment when my feelings began to sort out and I began to approach you slowly. Your heart was tightly shut, but I thought I could get you to open up to me once again if I take gradual steps. I thought I could make up to you for my past actions. I thought I could make things right. Hoping I can let my feelings reach you even if I was late.

Maybe you saw my desperation that you began to open up to me once more and we were able to be close again. As I became closer with you, I didn't know what was the right thing anymore. Am I allowed to confess my feelings for you after hurting you like that? Do you still have feelings for me?

After all those thinking, I came to a decision that I should just remain as your friend. Maybe this was for the best. However, my decision was ruined when I saw that scene in front of me. I saw you getting confessed by someone from another class. I had the urge to go and interrupt the confession, but what right do I have to do that? Especially after I hurt your feelings. All I could do was watch the scene in anxiousness. I kept clenching and unclenching my fist, waiting for your response.

"I'm sorry, I have someone I like..." At your response, it made me glad. Glad that you rejected that confession. But my mind also lingered to your words. Someone you like? That words made my heart drop, but at the same time it made me hopeful. Is there a chance maybe you still like me? Is it okay for me to take another step towards you?

This made me gain courage to confess my feelings for you. At the back of my mind, I was scared that it might ruin our friendship once again if you reject my feelings. But I wanted to at least try it out. Try to let my feelings reach you rather than letting your slip away from me without even giving it a shot. I think that was the only way for me to not have any regrets.

After I made my decision, I had to think about how I can confess my feelings for you. How am I supposed to do it without pressuring you but sincerely? I had to think about it throughout the whole class and even as we were walking home, I could not think of a way to do so.

You seem to have notice the state I was in since your usual gentle eyes were filled with concern. Usually I was the one who does all the talking while you listened, but this time, you were the one talking and tried to keep the conversation going. Was it a solution you thought of? Because if it was, it was certainly working. My worries were pushed away as I tried to focus on your stories.

As I was focusing my attention towards you, I couldn't help but think how pretty your smile was. It was just too breathtaking that everything around me has came to a cease. It seemed to brightened our dark surroundings as well.

The dark sky with light illuminated from the moon, your smile, everything looked so perfect right now. That made to halt my steps which caused you to halt as well. You then looked at me with curiosity and nervousness. Your cute expression made me let out a slight chuckle before I patted your head gently, hoping to not ruin your hair. I saw your face turning redder each seconds and it was just too adorable. It made me love you even more. I wanted to be the only one to see this side of. you. I wanted it to be directed towards me only.

"K-Kuroo...?" At your soft calling, that was when I finally opened my mouth and let out the feelings that I held for a while. "I like you."

As if all my brain wrecking has went into a waste as those three words came out naturally. However, now that I let my feelings out, I began to be worried. What if it was too sudden for you? It may felt natural for me, but I can't say the same for you. As I looked at you in nervousness, I saw how your eyes were rounded as you stared at me. I could tell that it wasn't a negative response. My worries have flown away at her reaction that I let those feelings out once more. "I like you."

You fidgeted on your fingers before covering your face with your hands. "Me... too..."

I heard you clearly. As if that was all I could hear. Your response echoed in my brain that made me grin in glee. But your cute reaction made me want to tease you a bit. "Oya? What did you say? I did not hear you~"

You seemed to have noticed that I was fooling around as you glared at me with a slight pout. I found that expression adorable. Why is everything about you just adorable? As I chuckled, you looked at me briefly before looking away. "I said... I like you, too..."

Hearing those words just made me the happiest person alive that I hugged you tightly. You seemed to be surprised by my sudden affection, but I felt your arms wrapping around my torso and tightening your grip.

This situation was just too much for me. I just felt too happy. I was glad that I decided to take courage and let my feelings reach you. Now I can shower you with my affection freely and I wanted to erase the pain I gave you in the past. I wanted to make sure I can make it up and let you only remember how much I love you.

I had the chance to write a new chapter with you.