I walk upstairs to talk to Sam but instead, I hear a quiet conversation behind the door.
Colby- I don't know Sam. I really do love her and I really do want to be with her. But I need to know if this blood thing will work first. I know you guys don't want me to go but it'll be less suffering and stressful all across. It's also starting to turn into torment trying not to feed. I've been subsiding my hunger as long as I can but I don't know if I can anymore
Sam- then why haven't you talked to her about it?
Colby-I don't want to hurt her or make her feel used. I want to keep her happy until I can't. If we're together it's going to hurt even more than if we aren't
I start shaking pretty bad and turn around quickly walking away. I hear a faint "hello?" Coming from behind me but I don't care. I keep walking. I want to walk far away and hide. But as I walk out the back door, I accidentally run into Jake.
Jake- hey whatcha doing?
I try to shrug him off but he gently grabs my shoulder
Jake- what's wrong?
Yn- just.. something Colby said.. I don't know. He doesn't want to be with me if I won't let him leave me first. I don't want that.
Tara comes up to us from around the corner and must've heard the whole thing as she comes up to me offering a hug.
Tara- Itll be okay hunny. We'll talk to him.
They bring me inside and sit with me on the couch, waiting.
After about 20 minutes Sam and Colby walk downstairs. Noticing how quiet it is, Sam clears his throat.
Sam- is everything okay?
Tara- I don't know. Is everything okay with you guys? You were up there talking for quite a bit about something
Colby- that's none of your business.
Tara- it is when people are talking about my friend behind her back where everyone nearby can hear
Colby's face suddenly drops and Sam's gets pale
Colby- what is it that you heard?
Yn- that we can't be together until I let you kill yourself
Everyone kind of stares at Colby while he looks down
Colby-I just don't want to hurt you more if it does happen and we've been together. I don't know why but I feel like without a label it would hurt less
Yn- or you just can't wait to use me to kill yourself.
I don't care to listen to the conversation anymore. I don't want to hear his reasoning. I just don't want to. So I go to my room and slam the door shut, locking it and pushing my chair under the handle. I don't want to be talked to right now. While sitting in my room, I hear loud voices here and there. Must be a debate going on. Oh well. I roll over and feel myself drift off to sleep
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??- yn. Hello. Hello? Wake up. This is important.
I roll my eyes and open them to be met by Brennen.
Yn- how the hell did you get in here?
I look over to see the chair where it belongs and the door cracked
Brennen- the door was just like that before I came in, why?
Yn- Nothing... I guess I thought I locked it earlier
Brennen- Anyway. I woke you up to talk about this whole Colby thing. I think you should do it yn.
Yn-that's surprising, especially coming from you.
Brennen- If he really loves you, he wouldn't be doing this to hurt you. Maybe this is just his attempt at finding peace with himself before he can give his all to you. I say let him do this.
Yn- what if he really doesn't make it?
Brennen- then you get the chance to... move on; before it's too late.
I feel a tear roll down my cheek. Brennen's right... this is just as much his choice as it is mine. It's time.
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To Save A Blackened Heart
FanfictionThe story is about a suicidal girl who meets a very... different person. She starts falling in love but her old time best friend isn't having it. He doesn't want to date her or anything, but he doesn't want to see her get hurt by the black-hearted m...
