What Goes Unheard

Heartbreaker

Everyone talks about getting broken up with and feeling heartbroken

But it's different when you are the one breaking up with someone

Being the villain in someone else's story

There is this sense of feeling selfish

The sense of feeling like you are the problem

Knowing that you are the cause of someone else's pain

But

Sometimes a relationship doesn't feel right to you

And that's okay

Not every person you date will be the right fit for you

And sometimes you notice it later on

That doesn't make you a bad person

You make mistakes and learn from them

Being the heartbreaker isn't any easier

It's the feeling of guilt that consumes you

And the constant thoughts of, whether you made the right decision, or not

There is the process of having to get used to them not being in your daily routine

Getting used to them not being the first person you tell exciting news to

Getting used to not receiving their texts the moment you wake up

And finally getting used to not feeling their touch on your skin

It hurts

It all hurts

But they just weren't the right person for you

You had to accept that there could be no future for this

So to make it easier for the both of you

It would have been better to end it now than later

And it's okay to be the heartbreaker yet feel so broken yourself