Ezra
We are done.
I tried and she turned me down.
We. Are. Over.
I feel my heart pound in my chest and my breathing starts to pick up. I drove straight here after our meeting at the ice cream parlor and as I suited up I felt an ache in my throat, the kind you can only get when you are holding back tears.
I sit in the locker room at the hockey rink where I grew up playing suiting up, I need something to distract me and hockey has always done that.
Growing up I knew there was one thing I would never be, and that was my father, yet the older I get the more I feel myself following his footsteps.
I always knew I wanted to be a good man, the kind where they don't cheat on their partners or hurt them and somehow I've done just that.
I cheated on her and for that, I could understand why she would never forgive me.
I'm a terrible person.
Im selfish.
Those are the only thing keeping me believing there is still chance because i cannot live the rest of my life with out Star. She is what keeps my life bright.
What happens if without her becomes my always?
Vienna
I was completely wrong. What he said changed absolutely everything. But i have to be stronger that my mom was, I can't pretend like it never happened.
I drive to the nearest park and stare at the field until i finally break.
A sob makes its way out of me rippling my whole body as it comes. sob after sob, cry after cry, tear after tear, i realize just how in love with Ezra i am.
I grab my jacket out of the passenger seat to muffle a scream i am about to let out.
I know if I wasn't currently sitting down a would be on my knees sobbing until i could no longer breath.
I scream into my jacket and as I pull it apart a little spit of mine is left on the jacket making me feel pathetic.
I let out a sob that racks my whole body in ripples. My mascara is running down my face and my tears are so heavy, the collar of my shirt is soaked.
I look up and into the mirror on the sun visor and stare at my eyes. How did it get to this point? I think.
It made me realize I'm doing this to myself, it was my choice to do this and i chose wrong.
Will he want me after I just rejected him because I need him.
He needs to be my always, my forever.
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Super short chapter but this is a turning point in the book so i kind of wanted to have it be its own thing.
I know i have been gone for so long but when i tell you i had the worst motivation and writers block i mean it. Im sorry i let you down.
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Fuck Puck Love
RomanceVienna Carter stops believing in love after her father walks out on her family. Soon after she moves to Portland, Oregon, where their most prized possession is the boys' hockey team at Azalea Academy, there she meets golden boy Ezra St.Claire who wi...