Crazy In Love |UNEDITED|

Izzy's Demons

*Next Morning*I woke up from movements in my room. Axl was walking all over my room and writing something on a paper."What are you doing?" I asked with my sleepy voice.Axl didn't expect me to be awake so he jumped a little when he heard my voice."Oh did I wake you up babe?" He said climbing on my bed."Not really" I answered getting on him.i packed my lips on his lips and quickly pulled away and placed my head on his chest. He wrapped his hands over me and kissed my head."What were you doing?" I asked again still having my face pressed on his chest."Umm just writing" he answered quickly."What were you writing" I asked being extremely annoying."A song" he still answered sweetly.I then pulled away from his chest looked at his handsome face and without saying a word rolled over him and jumped of my bed."Where are you going?" He asked getting up of my bed."Out" I answered placing a soft kiss on his cheek.When I turned to leave he grabbed my hand and rolled me over to face him. Then he pressed me against a wall and got very close. I wrapped my legs over his waist and my hands over his shoulders"You are not going anywhere" He said  kissing my neck."Mhm" I said enjoying his wet kisses.Then next thing I know I was on my bed under Axl.*After Nearly 30 minutes*"I hate you for doing this to me" I said getting up from the bed."I'm sorry. Can't control myself when you are close" he said smirking on me.It was true tho. Neither Axl nor me could control the situation when we were together. We just did what we wanted to without thinking. We were like the spoiled kids who always get and do everything they want.Although we knew it,we honestly enjoyed our bad habbits.He was the beast who lived inside of me and I knew it. He was the monster under my bed which just made me go slowly insane. Everything he did, every step he took , every little thing about him made me go nuts. He was the reason for everything I have done. He was the one who could make me do whatever he wanted to and he knew it. He was my only excuse for everything."Get the fuck off of me!!" I came back to reality from Steven's annoying voice. Me and Axl left my room and went to the boys who were yelling at each other."What the fuck happened now?" Axl questioned not actually interested in the answer."He broke my drumstick when he fell on me!" Steven said pointing at Duff."I'm sorry, I slipped" Duff said holding himself not to burst out laughing."Good job baby" I said giving Duff a high five which pissed Steven even more."Screw you!" Steven said and went to the kitchen then Izzy came to the living room."Why is he mad? Again." He asked annoyed."Duff broke Steven's drumstick with his butt" Axl replayed tired of the drama."Okay Then" he said and set on the coach.Izzy looked odd to me. He was very chill and looked kinda sick"Iz are you okay?" I asked worried for my brother."Yeah,why" he asked looking at me."You look kinda sick" I replayed not even expecting to get an answer."Yeah very sick he is just high" Steven answered getting back from the kitchen with a can of a beer."WHAT?!?!" I got up from my seat.Izzy just stood up and walked away leaving me behind.I wanted to go after him but I just though he needed some privacy.I just quickly went to my room and threw myself on my bed. I put my hands on my face and was about to cry but than the door of my room opened. "Why is he doing that shit?" I spoke without bothering to look who it was because I knew exactly that it was Axl."It's just,maybe he wants to get out of the reality for a bit" he said climbing on my bed and wrapping his hands over me.I leaned on him and suddenly felt so protected. I looked up at his eyes and got mesmerized. "Babe it's not addictive and not that bed,don't worry" he said than packed his lips on my forehead.I couldn't help myself and hugged him tightly.His hot breath made me get goosebumps.His Smell,his soft hair,his blue eyes made me so calm. I was ready to die in his arms. "What are you thinking about?" I heard his deep but at the same time soft voice."About us" I answered looking at him."What about us?" "I don't know,I still don't realize that we are finally together" I spoke."Well, you better realize it soon cuz we are together and this is forever" he answered placing a soft kiss on my nose.I smiled and got up from my was 5 o'clock,we were at my room the whole day. I didn't want to leave from my room but I understood that I had to make sure that Izzy was okay.I needed to talk to him.When I got to the living room I saw that Izzy wasn't there."Hey guys,where is Izzy?" "He is in his room" Slash answered lazily.I then walked to Izzy's door and knocked on it."Come in" i heard him say.I opened the door and entered the room. Izzy was laying on the floor and was looking up. I walked to him and laid next to him.I suddenly noticed how dark his room was, the curtains were closed and air was full of cigarette smoke."Iz,what's wrong with you?" I asked carefully"The devil Hanna, he is real and he is in my head" He answered closing his face with his hands.His words made me worry about him much more now."Is he talking with you Izzy?" I asked perfectly understanding what he was feeling."Yes he does, he always talks,he won't shut up Han, that's why I'm drinking that much, when I drink he shuts up,but yesterday he wouldn't shut up and even drinking didn't stop him so-so I took some pills""What does he say?" I asked not even paying attention to what he said after "yes he does"" he says that nobody needs me, that I'm a complete trash" she said holding back his tears."Iz you need to tell him to get out of your head, don't let him bring you down you are not a trash. I need you. The guys need you. I'm here fore you Izzy. I'm always by your side you know that right ?" I said hugging him."Thank you Hanna, I don't know where I would be without you" he said putting his head on my shoulder.We were talking in a darkness for probably 2 hours.I knew perfectly what Izzy was feeling. I knew what he was talking about. When I was 16 I had the baddest depression ever. I had lost myself. I was thinking about death every second. I wasn't eating and talking (like literally I was NOT talking at all) I used to lock in my room and stare at the wall for hours and Izzy was the one who helped me out of the darkness.He forced my parter to change my whole bedroom. Then I left to New Orleans and got a little rest from all the shit that was going on with me. After a while I manages to get out of the darknessI grabbed Izzy's hand and pulled him off his room. We went to the living room and set on the floor. Izzy still wasn't talking and I decided to do something about it."Duff do we have Vodka?" I yelled."Sure we have!" He answered exited."Then go and bring it, and beers, and Whisky and every fucking drink we have" I said looking at him."Woo Hanna calm down,do you want to die today?" Slash asked with a chilled face. I just ignored him. Than I looked at Axl and it seemed like he understood what I was doing because he was calm and quite."Han can you help me here?" I heard Duff from the kitchen. I went to the kitchen and saw that he got all the drinks we had out of the fridge. I took some bottles and Duff took some as well. We then left the kitchen and handed the bottles to everyone. I gave a huge bottle of Vodka to Izzy who easily opened it and some minutes ago almost half of the bottle was gone. I as well drank my beer and then took another one then another and so on. Not only me but we all just drank everything we had. Only Axl who drank only two cans of beer was sitting on the coach normally. Slash was laying on the floor, Steven was throwing out at the bathroom. Izzy was sitting on the floor cuddling with a bottle of Jack, Duff was singing something and Kylie was already asleep on the other coach with a can of beer in her hand.Everything was blurry around me, I rubbed my eyes and got up to go get some water. I took a bottle of water from the fridge and opened it. When I drank it I was going to leave but I accidentally dropped the bottle from my hand and it broke (it was made of glass). I started to take the broken pieces up from the floor and one of the pieces cut my hand open and when I saw the blood I freaked out. I knew I had band aid in my bathroom so I ran to my room. I was still bleeding and I guess Axl saw the blood because He came to the bathroom running."What happened, are you okay?" He asked then took my hand and when he saw the cut his eyes widened."How the fuck did you do this?" He asked again but I just couldn't answer.He ran out of the bathroom and came with vodka bottle in his hand,he then got some vodka on a towel and put it on hand. I Quickly pulled my hand because it hurt like hell but he took my hand on his hand, got a band aid and wrapped it around the cut."Are you okay?" He asked softly. I still couldn't speak so I just nodded my head. He then raised and carried me to my bed. Minutes later I feel asleep in his arms.