Pomni x Jax 💜❤️💙

Realization (part 2)

Editors note: Pomni's pov, may be cringey
I have so many questions but very little answers... Is Jax waking up? Oh no... oh no oh no oh no... I wasn't ready for him to wake up yet! What should I do.. I don't want him to see I was just staring at him! Oh.. he sees me.. "Pomni? You awake? Why are you looking at me?" He asked. I stutter but manage to say, "U-uh I.. I don't- I just woke up! And for some reason my first instinct was to look your way!" He looks at me for a second. I am trying my best to smile but I'm starting to slightly sweat. He's taking forever to speak! It feels like it's been 100 years but really it's just been 5 seconds! "Alright, we'll how are you feeling?" Jax asks. I think about it for a second. I don't know how I feel. I just feel like everything happened at once and I never knew I was claustrophobic. "It just feels like when I was in that room, I just froze and felt like the space was so small.. I never knew I was claustrophobic..." I didn't realize I said that out loud. Out of all people, why would I tell him my problems? He's mean, a prankster, and annoys everyone (no hate on him, he's my sec fav character but it's just for the story)! "Pomni, it's ok, I have fears too." He said. I've never heard him open up to someone. This is a first for me! Maybe he isn't was he seems to be... I don't know though.. he's acting like such a good friend but any other time, he can be tripping someone, breaking Gangle's mask, fighting with Zooble, or teasing Kinger. This time, he finally opened up to me and it what unusual. "You do?" I finally asked. He nodded back at me. "Why did you help me?" I said, asking another question. I looked down, embarrassed. I don't know why I'm embarrassed though.. I know I'm not feeling hot because I like him right? That's impossible because who in the circus would like him? Not me ofc! But maybe it's true.. I might be catching feelings.. "Pomni?" He said. "Oh! I'm sorry I was just thinking, what were you saying before?" I replied. "Well what I was saying was I helped you because we were in a cell together and I couldn't leave you there just like that, and just because people might call me a prankster, doesn't mean I'm a monster!" He said. At that moment I somehow felt bad for him. Everyone is always annoyed with him but no one ever thinks about his health, or his feelings. I didn't know everything about him when I came to the circus. But I'm surprised that everyone has been here longer than me but could never figure out the good things about Jax. I couldn't stop myself from hugging him tight and saying "thank you" I could tell he was surprised, and I can also tell that I wasn't embarrassed, I actually starting blushing.. What is this feeling? Why do I even have it?