Listen To My Stupid Heart ♡

51. Finally A Job

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10 months later

Arini's pov

" 55% " I pouted before turning head towards shrey. His eyes were stuck on my laptop and my results were displaying on the screen. He took enough time to read all the marks while I just kept on looking at him with a small pout on my face.

" I don't know what to tell to my mother " I said when he looked at me. Finally. He squeezed my nose and then ruffled my hair. " It's okay. You gave your best. I saw you working hard this time. I'll tell aunty " He said, trying to make me feel good but it wasn't enough as I was really feeling bad.

Shrey is my boyfriend and he's so so so so good at studies while on the other hand, being her girlfriend, I should be brilliant like him too. But I just kind of pass the exams. There's something really defected in my brain.

Shrey brought his head closer and pecked my mouth. " Kya hua.. Itna bura lag raha hai? " And he pecked again before adding, "koi nhi... I'll make sure ki koi meri biwi ko na date.. "

( what happened? This much sad?)
( it's okay, I'll make sure that no one scolds my wife)

I smiled weakly but from inside I was exploding. Shrey's sweet words, caring side, kisses, hugs make me feel like I'm being squeezed in love. Sometimes I recall those school days when I used to chase him everytime, everywhere. Sometimes I feel like maybe I forced him into this, maybe I don't deserve him, maybe because I was never getting away from his side, he started liking me. Maybe it was not fated but I forced it all.

These thoughts give me nothing but tears just like now. Shrey's face started becoming blurry as my eyes started being watery. I blinked and my cheeks felt the warmness of the tear. Shrey didn't waste time to pull me in a hug. Also I wanted to hide my face in his chest but he held my face and made me look at him while being in the hug.

" Itni choti baat pe kyun ro rhi ho baccha? "

( why are you crying on this little matter baby?)

" Hey i promise you're not with the worst marks. You worked hard, I'm the proof, I saw it" He mumbled softly while wiping my tears.

But I don't know why his sweet words made me cry more. More warm tears came out and I hugged him tightly. I was crying today but maybe the low marks wasn't the actual reason, I felt like I'm not good enough for him. He is really so great in my eyes, in everyone's and if I look carefully, I'm nothing. How will it be a good match?

" Will you stop crying Arini please? Okay next time I'll again teach you like I used to do before, thik hai? " ( okay?)

" Shrey.... " I mumbled and he hummed in the response. "Chahe jitna bhi effort karlo. Mujhse kuch behtar nhi hota. Tum kitne acche ho padhai mein, tumhe sharam ayegi mere sath khade hone mein " I blurted out.

( no matter how much efforts you put, I can never do better. You're so good in studies, you'll be embarrassed while standing with me)

And he suddenly pushed my face up again. Now our faces were dangerously close. I saw anger in his eyes. I gulped in fear.

" From where is this coming? " Asked he and I looked down.

" From where? " He repeated himself. " Look at my eyes"

" Ese hi bola "

( just said like that)

" you saw how my insecurities tried to kill me, kill our relationship, now you're growing them inside of you? Hmm? " He asked in a demanding voice where I had to give in.