𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

When Your Not Here

Request from: SUCKURHOES
Tw: slight angst, attachment issues, anxiety attack, fluff!! :)
Enjoy!
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Matt knew Nick and Chris were at a Fresh Love and Space Camp meeting, so why was he sitting in the corner of his room on the verge of tears? He doesn't know, or maybe he has an idea.

Matt had very serious attachment issues towards Nick, whenever they weren't together he was always wondering "where is Nick?" , "why am I not with him again?" It was even worse when they were not together due to Matt's anxiety, he was mostly quiet at social events and parties, and basically anywhere that was public.

Usually, he would give Nick a certain look and he would immediately know matt that wanted to leave the event. It was especially difficult when Nick wasn't with him, knowing that without him he felt out of his own control. Matt always felt like he was different and out of place. Like he didn't belong.

Nick was the only thing there was to keep him sane, assuring him that he is important and is deserving of love, that he does belong. The only place Matt felt he belonged was in Nick's arms, the only place where he felt safe.

What if Nick was tired of Matt being so reliant on him? What if he annoyed Nick with his clinginess? What if he thought Matt was weird.. Maybe he wasn't coming back, maybe he left Matt because he was tired of him. All these distressing thoughts flooded his mind, his heart beating at a rapid pace.

He fidgeted with his short, chipped nails that had dry blood on the edges of the nail bed from how much he bit and tore at them. Matt's leg bounced up and down at a rapid pace, he closed his eyes knowing that he was currently having an episode. He tried his best to stay still, his heart beat fluttering every second.

Nick probably did leave him, he was such a cry baby anyways. Heavy tears built up in his eyes, daring to spill as he trembled slightly. He closed his eyes, the cold tears dripping down his cheeks.

Matt then felt arms wrap around his body, he looked up to see Nick going to embrace him, he knew what was happening. Nick placed him on his lap, rubbing his back up and down gently letting Matt sob into his shoulder.

"I'm sorry, I-I annoy you probably." He mumbled through sobs, looking up at Nick with wide eyes shining with tears.

Nick tilted his head, confused on what the younger meant. "Baby, what do you mean?" He asked softly, wiping the tears from Matt's baby blue eyes.

"I'm always attached to you, you're probably tired of it." Matt responded dejectedly, looking down at his tangled fingers, his fluffy brown locks falling above his eyes.

Nick truly could never get tired of Matt, he knew he had attachment issues. Nick was sure he had the same towards him, when he wasn't with Matt he felt a sense of both protectiveness and worry of where the younger could be. He hated every second they were apart.

He lifted his chin up, making eye contact as their midwinter toned eyes met. "I could never get tired of you Matt, I love you and you are everything to me." He said genuinely, looking into the younger's eyes with such seriousness but also sincerity.

Tears built up in Matt's eyes again, not because of sadness but because he felt so loved. "I-I love you too.." He replied,

"I know you do, silly." Nick giggled, earning a sweet chuckle from Matt. His sapphire eyes glistened in the sunlight that beamed in from the open window of matts room, the slight breeze cooling the air.

Nick pecked at Matt's cheek, lingering a little longer. Matt shoved him away playfully, "Ewww!!" He laughed, Matt was lying. He loved when Nick kissed him on the cheek, and luckily Nick knew that.

"Oh shut up, you love my kisses." Nick teased back affectionately,

"Nuh uh!" Matt denied, crossing his arms playfully as he turned his head around.

"Okay then.. bye Matt." Nick sighed jokingly, acting as if he was about to leave. Matt held him down,

"I was just joking.." Matt murmured, with big doe eyes filled with genuine concern that Nick was about to abandon him.

"Calm down darling, I wasn't gonna leave you." Nick reassured him, cradling him in his arms letting him know that he was comforted. He heard a muffled sigh come from Matt that currently had his head buried into Nicks chest,

"'M tired.." Matt muttered sleepily, his breaths becoming slower by the second.

"Go to sleep matty, I'm here." Nick said soothingly, gathering him closely in his arms.

Matt rested his face against Nicks chest, listening to his heartbeat that usually calmed his anxiety. Nick stroked through his knotted but silky brown locks, soon he heard light snores coming from Matt. He watched his baby brother sleep so peacefully, the muscles in his face relaxed as his rosy cheeks glimmered in the sunlight, his lips parted slightly.

"I love you.." he whispered, his heart fluttering at the sight of the sleeping boy that laid on his chest. There wasn't a day he didn't wish to come home just to have moments like these with Matt, it was the best part of his day. And Matt was the best part of his life.

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Hope you guys enjoyed this, a little more angsty one shot coming after this one lol. Love you all,

- Jade 🎀