𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

How Much Do You Love Me?

Tw: mention of self harm, crying, fluff, idk
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Matt was typically known as the quiet one,  the more calm one, or maybe even the distant one out of the three. As kids, it was always Matt and Chris who had the most in common, and they were always together. During lacrosse and hockey their relationship grew most. Nick was the triplet that would be distant towards his brothers when they were kids.

It was only rarely when Nick would hang out with Chris as kids. The reason behind that being the younger joining hockey just to become closer to Nick, resulting in Matt and Nick barely ever talking.

But, when he came out, his relationship with Matt shifted. They became closer than ever, inseparable even. It had gotten to a point where Matt felt anxious or off when he wasn't near his older brother. That was where his attachment issues rooted from.

Lately, Nick and Chris had became closer. Which to Matt was a good thing, until he felt Chris was taking up all of Nicks time causing Matt to have to distance himself. It was hard having to be alone all the time, knowing whenever he would try to spend time with his older brother, Chris would be there.

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It was one of those restless nights for Matt, where he would toss and turn for hours trying to fall asleep but nothing could work. No matter how many times he fluffed his pillow, or shut his eyelids, he still wouldn't be able to fall into slumber.

He sighed, rubbing his face with his palms. On nights like these, there was only one solution that could be helpful. Which was, going to sleep in Nicks bed, his second favorite place to be. The first being inside the older's arms. He lifted himself up with his knuckles, stretching slightly.

The younger trailed off into Nicks room, only a dim light shining from the lamp on his nightstand. He was going to go in until the shadow of another person was shown, Chris was laid on top of Nicks chest with his head underneath the eldest chin. Light snores could be heard as the pair slept peacefully, and something in Matt felt hurt.

He didn't know why, but it hurt him. It made his heart ache, as he retreated back to his own room. Maybe he was being semi-dramatic, but it felt like something in their relationship changed ever since that day. But, being scared that he would hurt his brother, he didn't say anything. Although he wish he could.

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Today they would be filming a car video, it was currently 6:00 pm and they would leave the house at 11:00 to get everything ready. Matt plopped down on the couch, the fluffy white blanket spread across the cushions, he expected Nick to be there. He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion, this was usually the time he and the eldest would watch cheesy movies together and nap.

He crept upstairs, the Uggs he borrowed from his older brother warming his feet as he walked up the stairs. Matt saw that Nicks door was slightly opened, a tv screen shining onto his led light displayed wall. He peeked inside of his bedroom, seeing Nick lying soundly against his pillows with Chris cuddled up on his lap, Nick stroking his dark brown locks. Matt sighed, another night just like the rest.

Though this time it stung a little more. It was basically a tradition for Nick and Matt to nap together watching television, and to see that Chris had already stolen that place made his heart ache more. He decided it was best to just walk away, knowing that he had to deal with it.

Nick saw a shadow at his door, he couldn't see who it was but he knew by only his footsteps that it was Matt. Nick had noticed Matt acting weird these past couple of weeks, keeping to himself and not being his usual charismatic self that usually always found a way to be near Nick.

He didn't want to overthink it, as he directed his gaze back to the television.

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They were in the process of filming their car video, Chris babbling about one topic he is specifically enthused about while Nick interrupted him by shouting about how loud and annoying Chris could be. Matt looked out the window, observing the stars that scattered across the dark atmosphere of the night sky.

He decided to chime in a bit so the fans wouldn't make up any conspiracies on why he was being quieter than usual.

"Remember yesterday when-" Matt started, Chris immediately mocking his sentence.

Matt didn't pay attention to Chris's poor imitation of  him. Instead he looked at the rear view mirror expecting Nick to stand up for him as usual, yelling at Chris's remarks. But he didn't. He didn't even look at Matt, instead just continuing his conversation with Chris.

A few minutes later, Chris playfully smacked Matt in the chest to get his attention,

"Why aren't you talking tough guy?" He asked in a good natured manner.

Matt scoffed, shocked that Chris didn't know why he was so upset. "Are you kidding me?" Matt asked, both angry and surprised about Chris's question.

"You talk for 16 minutes straight, yelling nonsense. And You're asking why I'm upset?Maybe because you're so obnoxious." Matt expressed, genuinely upset.

Chris continued to laugh, taking Matt's speech as a joke. Even though he did, Nick could tell something was wrong. He could tell Matt really meant it.

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Nick couldn't stand the crying that came from his younger brother's room, it tore his heart apart. He decided to invade his privacy just this time, entering his room as he pushed the rosewood door open to discover his little brother sobbing into his hands with a weapon right beside him.

Nick approached him, finally seeing that it was a razor with blood dripping from the end of it. He sat on the other side of Matt, removing the hands that covered his face so he could get a clear vision of him.

"What happened? Why are you crying?" Nick asked softly, even if he was deeply worried inside he stayed calm for Matt.

"Go talk to Chris." Matt suggested, turning away from the older resisting his touch.

"Matt what do you?— " Nick asked, finally realizing what had happened. "Oh, baby." Nick spoke softly, wrapping his arms around Matt and embracing him gently. Matt sobbed into his shoulder, wrapping his arms around the elders neck letting out his emotions.

"I-Im being such a crybaby I'm sorry." Matt said in between sobs, holding his brother tightly as if it was the last hug he was ever going to give him,

"No you're not. I didn't realize how you felt, and that's my fault." Nick assured him gently, cupping Matts face in his hand. He observed his tear streaked face, though it reflected the younger's pain; it remained beautiful.

"How much do you love me?" Matt asked in almost a whisper, silent tears falling down his face.

"Matthew, You are my life—beginning to end." Nick responded honestly, smiling at his little brother's face that lit up when hearing Nicks meaningful words. 

He pressed a kiss onto Matt's forehead, then pressing kisses on his cheek, nose, chin, eyes, (not his lips obviously). They bumped foreheads, their noses touching, they intertwined their fingers feeling the similar electricity they felt when being in each other's presence.

"I love you so much." Matt said, quietly.

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