Ρяσcєєd ωιтн Cαυтισи (editing)

Freedom Pt. 1

"Baby stop running." I told Chance. "But I gotta hide from daddy." He says in his sweet voice. "You need to stop running before you break something or hurt yourself okay?" He nodded his head. "Yes mommy." I kissed his forehead. "Good. Now hide in the pantry. He's not going to look there." I helped Chance get inside of the pantry and placed some things in front of him so he wouldn't be seen easily. "Now you have to be still and don't say a word no matter what." I told him and he nodded while zipping his lips. I closed the door and went back to cooking. The door wasn't a full solid door. It had the little blinds look to it so it was plenty of air being circulated in there.

"Babe where's Chance?" My fiancé asked me. For some reason, I couldn't see his face. "Y'all playing hide and seek again?" I asked him. "Yeah. He's not where he usually be and I looked everywhere." He says as he wrapped his arm around me and laid his chin on my shoulder. "Where's my other baby?" I asked him. "She's in our bed sleeping. What you cooking?" He asked. "Baked chicken, macaroni and cheese, yams, dirty rice, and string beans." "Damn we eating good tonight. What's the occasion?" He asked. "My boss and his family is coming over remember?" He palmed his head.

"Babe I totally forgot. I'm sorry." He kissed me cheek. "Mhm. I bet you are." I went to the pantry to get a plastic bag for my potato pills and noticed Chance in there sleep. "What's funny?" He asked as I giggled. "It looks like he finally beat you in hide and seek." I pulled Chance out and picked him up. He laughed and took him from me. "You put him in there didn't you?" I shrugged my shoulders and laughed.

December 23

I woke up from my sleep once I heard Chance whine. He is such a good baby! He's very active and always smiling. The only reason he won't be is if he's hungry or need a diaper change. The dream I just had is one dream I've always had. But now that I had Chance, the little boy is giving a face, but I still can't see who my future husband is. I honestly hope it's Caution because I really do love him. But then I'm thinking if it was him, wouldn't my fiancé in my dream have his face too?

"Hey mommy's baby." When he heard my voice, Chance's face lit up. "Ooh somebody needs a nice bath and feeding huh?" I laughed as he smiled showing all gums. I undressed him and took his diaper off and wiped all the mess off of him. I placed one of his towels on him to stop the cold air from hitting his bare piece resulting in him peeing on me.

"You look just like your daddy." I kissed Chance's nose as we were both in my tub. I felt like having quality time with my son, so I made us a bath that's not too hot for him, played some Jill Scott and lit some candles around the sink with the lights off since it was dark outside. "Bless you." I said once he sneezed. I can't wait for him to start talking.

He started whining a little and I knew why. I dried off my right breast and latched him on. I was kind of use to it, but it still hurts from time to time. Especially pumping breastmilk. That hurts like hell.

"Awe y'all so cute." I jumped a little which frightened Chance because he screamed a little and started crying. "I'm sorry." She says as I calmed him down. "Laila what are you doing here and how did you get in?" I asked her. "Josh has a key remember. And you said we could stay over tonight because you were cooking Christmas Eve breakfast in the morning." I palmed my head softly. "I forgot sorry. Give us like 20 minutes." I told her. "Take your time."

After burping Chance, I got out and wrapped him into his towel first then walked to the room with nothing on my body. And I was freezing! Good thing the bathroom was connected to the room unlike at my one bed house. I placed Chance on the bed and dried myself off before wrapping my body in the towel and dressing him in warm clothes.

I can't believe it's been 2 months since I had Chance. That day was also the last day I talked to Caution believe it or not. For some reason, Judge Abel decided to be nasty and cut off all contact for him. No visitors, no phone calls, nothing. The only person who could see him was Glenn and that was because he's his current lawyer. I should blast her ass but I won't.