IDGAF

Part 97

Hey thots, hope you enjoy this part.

Zero POV

Los Angeles, California
January 21st
Saturday, 2:44 A.M.

When I came in my apartment it didn't even smell like me anymore. I pushed my bags in leaving them next to the door for now.

I brought the bag that had my body wash and face stuff so I can just go to sleep. I normally look forward to my shower. But it is where I do a lot of my thinking. I'm dreading it this time because I know my brain is not gonna give me a break from Dayvon.

I took out some pajama clothes and went to the bathroom. I put my phone on dnd and went to Apple Music. I made a quick playlist and started the shower.

45 MINUTES LATER, I stepped out of the shower finally feeling rid of everything from tonight. But not for long.

"She said she can't feel her face, right now I can't feel my heart." I sung to myself listening to Tumblr Girls by G-Eazy ft Christoph Andersson.

When I got out of the bathroom I opened the door letting the trapped steam out. I found a dry towel and wiped down the wet bathroom counter. I left my phone figuring I need to be away from it for a while anyway. I went to the kitchen to make myself some tea.

When I was done I went to my bedroom putting my mug on the nightstand on the side I sleep on. But I started to hear my phone ringing off the damn counter in the bathroom. Which confused me cause it's on dnd and literally NO ONE'S calls or messages should be able to come through.

As I went over to pick my phone up I heard loud banging on my door. I knew who it was of course before hearing the voice.

"Zero!" Dayvon yelled at my door.

I can never run away for too long. Especially not when he obviously knows where I live.

I went to the door and opened it.

"Girl what the fuck is you doin?" Dayvon said immediately grabbing me by my shirt backing me up to the nearest wall.

"Dayvon move." I said trying to push him away.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" Dayvon said pushing me and I pushed him harder.

"What the fuck is wrong with YOU? You don't just come in here grabbing me." I said straightening my shirt.

"N you don't just walk outta no muhfuckin buildin without tellin me. N then going home n packin yo shit? You havin a mood swing again? Fuck is yo problem?" He said.

"Keep talking to me that and my mood isn't going to be the only one SWINGING. I walk out of wherever the fuck I want to, you think cause you like me you fuckin own me." I pointed.

"I do fuckin—"

"No the fuck you don't. And you won't." I said shaking my head.

"Zero where is allis shit comin from alla sudden. You was just sayin how you ain't want me to leave you alone at the party, n then you walk out without tellin me?" He said.

"And isn't funny how you insisted not to stay with me." I chuckled to myself as he was ringing bells himself.

"What the fuck is you talkin about now Zero?" He said.

"You really play dumb as FUCK every single time Dayvon. Wow. I'd cry from your bullshit if I didn't already know you, and know exactly what the fuck you do Dayvon." I said. But yet still. I actually could stomach to cry. And I was going to before he started banging on my fucking door. Only because the other times, I knew Dayvon wasn't going all the way in. Shit, I wasn't even trying to go all the way in. But these last 2 times really hurt because it just seems like everything was so right.

We can argue all day. Fine. Let's scream. But talking to other bitches, getting bitches number, cheating, I can't risk doing that shit again. Not even with him for this baby. Fuck kind of example am I setting for my daughter letting her dad constantly cheat on me?

"Who the fuck is playin dumb? Play dumb about what?" He said.

"I must got ditzy bitch written on my forehead or sum." I said sighing and face palming myself.

"Tell me what happened Zero." He said and i took a deep breath.

"When I say it, I'm going to say other stuff too. And I need you to not interrupt." I said looking at him.

"It depend on what the hell you sayin folks." He said.

"No. Just be quiet." I said.

"Go head Zero." He said.

"I saw YOU getting another girl number in the back Dayvon. I saw you hug that girl and everything. I hope you have a wonderful future with her. I think we're just done—"

"I wasn't—"

"What did I say? We are done. I'm not about to keep letting you play me with your words. You tell me you love me when you really don't—"

"How could you eva sit up n question my love fa you?!" He yelled.

"Because you keep showing me you don't fucking love me?! The fuck are you talking about Dayvon?! Fuck you. I'm not doing this." I said with tears starting to form in my eyes.

I barely wanted to come to the conclusion to just leave Dayvon alone, but he's making it harder with all this arguing.

I knew it wasn't going to be as easy as just walking away. I'm pregnant with his baby. I'm going to have to deal with for rest of my life. But we don't have to be together to do so. I don't wanna be someone's doormat again. But I love Dayvon so much.

I just wish he would get it together.

"Doing what? Cmere ma." Dayvon said quickly taking my wrists and I sighed not wanting to cry in his face.

"Broooo get off meeee." I said trying to pull my hands away.

"Where is you gone go Zero? You gotta talk to me." He said and I looked at him.

"You just love having a constant reminder im fucking stuck with you. But you still lie and do weird shit in my face." I said.

"What weird shit? You wanna see my phone?" Dayvon said reaching for his phone and i immediately shook my head. Learned my lesson from the first time I picked up his phone tryna be nosy.

"No. You got it Von. Just leave me alone bro." I said shaking my head.

"I ain't neva gone leave you alone Zero. Talk to me please. What I do?" He said getting closer to my face but I pushed him away again.

"Stoppppp. Get out just get out." I said shaking my head pushing him away.

"Zero—"

"Get OUT Von." I said looking at him with a serious face and he took a deep breath and left out letting the door slam close behind him. As soon as the door closed I started crying. It was silent because I didn't even have it in me to scream or anything. I just felt like my chest was caving in.

Hey thots, hope you enjoyed this part.

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