Dear Scott,
You miss the words
You know my face
It blends not in the crowd
You see her there
Towards you she comes
Towards you I walk away
It takes two to tango, to talk or not
Yet the blame goes to you my friend
For it’s you in pain
It’s you full of change
My opinion remains the same
I talked to you and let you know
And you revealed your feelings unchanged
I missed you dear, though in front of me
Not you who spoke your words
A change in you, more clear each day
Had filled you head to toe
A change so strong, it hurt me so
A change you didn't see
For you were too busy
Too focused on things
Things that, with time
Shall always pass
So here I stood
And here I stand
My feelings for you
Unchanged
I remembered the first day I saw them together after everyone found out about their romance. The three flights of stairs up to my composition class seemed more exhausting than usual that day. I made it to the landing near the third floor and glanced out the window to my right before turning my attention to the last of the stairs.
My heart was instantly in the bottom of my stomach, beating against my belly button as I held tight to the railing. There they were, Scott and Jean, hand-in-hand a few steps ahead of me. His dark brown hair fell into his brown eyes as he leaned in and whispered something into her ear. She barely reached his shoulders, the awkward height difference forcing him to bend slightly at the middle for his eyes to meet hers. I watched with jealousy as they so publicly exchanged smiles and graced each others shoulders with their hands. He took a step closer to her, pulling her in with the hand that had coiled around her waist to find the small of her back. And then, he did it. On the stairs, for the world around them to see. He closed his eyes, and, with the softest pucker, kissed her. Even on her tippy toes, she still had to tilt her head back unnaturally far to be at the right angle to meet his face. I felt my eyelashes brush against my eyebrows as my eyes grew wide with surprise and disbelief. I had heard about them, knew they were together, and yet, it had never once crossed my mind that the two of them shared any intimate moments together, let alone in public. I shut my eyes tightly before opening them again. He pulled back slowly and, without a smile, he squeezed her hand and turned to go to his class, leaving both Jean and me staring after him.
I realized that my pace up the stairs had slowed as I took one grueling step at a time towards the top of the stairs. The air in my lungs felt like cement, the weight of it ready at any moment to pull me backwards, causing me to fall down the stairs. Was it the emptiness, or the heavy feeling that left me feeling completely out of control? I felt as though the world was passing around me and I was standing still. As hard as I tried, it seemed like the hardest chore to pull my legs up and then press them down again, taking each stair on like it would be my last.
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Dear Scott
Teen Fiction"Growing up around fairytales, Disney princesses and teen films, we are raised to believe that happy endings are always in store for us. But more often than not, reality sinks in, and the happy ending doesn't occur. Especially in high school. The ma...