4/22/13
My cousin died today. To suicide. I never knew he was in so much pain. We weren't as close as we should've been. I regret it so much. I wish I could have helped him. I wish I could have done something.
Today
I still miss him more than anything. I miss seeing him at family reunions. I miss him more everyday.
Girls in my grade always joke about suicide.
"Ugh, if I don't pass this test, I'll kill myself."
Me: "You will? In that case, maybe I should call someone."
Girl: "Oh no, I'm just joking."
If only they knew. If only they understood. Maybe then they would realize how serious it was.
Wishful thinking.
I miss you, Justice.
