In Love With My Best Friend (Ziam, Larry)

Chapter 19

Zayn's POV

OK here goes nothing Zayn.

I knock on the door to Liam's room. I heard him shuffle around, before I hear the click of the handle turning and the door being opened to see a Liam standing there, only in his trackies and shirtless.

Wow thanks Li, way to make this a whole lot harder than it already is. Ohh no  Déjà Vu.

He looked at me with a confused look on his face. "Ohh hey Zayn, what's up?" He asked plainly. I deserve that. 

"Hey Li." I smiled at him but he just raised an eyebrow at me. Right. This is nothing like my perfect dream. "Erm, could I talk to you about something?" I asked him hesitantly. He didn't say anything, just gestured his hand towards his bed to allow me to come in. I walked past him and sat at the edge of his bed. Liam closed his door and came over and sat on the bed also. "Where's Niall?" I asked hoping to ease the tension between us down a bit.

"He is with Josh again, left about an hour and a half ago." He replied. I nodded slowly and sat there staying quiet. "Well...What is it?" He asked impatiently. It seemed like he just wanted me to leave him alone, not that I blame him for that. But what do I say? Truth is Liam I'm in love with you. No I can't just say that, can I. I guess I'm going to have to wing it. Start off with saying sorry.

"I really wanted to apologise for the way I've been acting lately. I've been a massive jerk and you really didn't deserve it. We're meant to be best friends but I've been treating you like nothing. You have no idea how guilty and how much of a dick I feel like. I don't expect you to forgive me or be my friend again but I just hate the way I acted towards you Li. I really am sorry." I was looking at him but he was looking down at his hands. I didn't say anything else. I just waited for him to speak. He finally looked up and our eyes locked. When his eyes make contact with mine, I just melt. He looked both confused and disappointed.

"The thing is Zayn, it's not the fact you ignored me, it's the fact that you did it for no reason and if you did have an explanation you didn't tell me. I would’ve tried to fix it but you didn't tell me anything and when I confronted you about it you got all defensive and kept treating me like a piece of meat." I didn't know what to say. He was 100% true and I hurt him and I don't know how to make it up to him.

"I don't really know what to say." I told him truthfully. He sneered and shook his head. He reached over and grapped his water bottle from his bedside table and drank from it. I couldn't help but stare. The way his hand gripped the bottle, so firm and tightly. His muscles flexing with every little movement he made, that if I was standing I'm sure my knees would go weak. His lips left the bottle and I began to stare at them. They looked so moist and soft. I had to restrain myself.

"Zayn!" He clicked his fingers in front of my face.

"Huh. Sorry." I apologised.

"I said that you could start off by explaining everything and why you have been acting the way you have." He stated.

"Um yeah alright." Well now is the time Zayn. Once you tell him you can't go back but you can't really have a different explanation because other than being perfect he has done absolutely nothing wrong to you or to anyone. "Well I broke up with Perrie a little while ago, you know that and-"

"You started hanging out with Harry because he didn't have a girlfriend and I did?" He questioned. Well part of it was true, I suppose.

"I guess that's partly it?" It came out more of a question than a statement. "But that's not the actual reason." He nodded and waited for me to continue. Ohh crap, Ohh crap, Ohh crap I have to tell him and I have to tell him now. Shit shit shit shit. Stop swearing and freaking out Zayn. "Well- The thing is -Sometimes you start to- Like." Omg Zayn stop talking like how Harry does. "Alright, I'm just going to try say it. After I broke up with Perrie I wasn't planning on falling for someone so quickly afterwards." I stopped to take in his expression but he just looked puzzled as to what I'm attempting to say. I don't think that the person I'm falling for is him, is actually coming together in his brain. "And well the reason I've been spending so much time with Harry is because he found out and was helping me cope with the fact that I'm actually in love with someone and he was sort of in a similar situation to me, so we were helping each other. If that makes sense." He was mumbling some things under his breath but I couldn't quiet hear what.