Julian's POV
I haven't seen Cole in two days, I can still feel his guilt and anger he has towards himself. At school we'll cross paths but never say a word or even make eye contact at one another. I miss him, I've cut off all of my thoughts so he can't hear or reply to them. But day, by day my lycan howls for him it aches for him, my changing over these last two days has been coming unknowingly.
It happened while I was sleep I was thinking about Cole and how I missed him, than for some reason I just got angry at him in my body transformed, but the thing is, I stay in a human form, my skin and eyes just change color and I grow very sharp teeth and nails. In all I want is to-to..... To kill someone.
Today I'm in the cafeteria with Kat just relaxed until, an unfamiliar scent mixed with Cole's makes me feel with jealousy. But I ignore it.
"Julian do you trust me" asked Kat suddenly. I nodded
"Than don't turn around, and don't get mad just get up and walk outta here with me" she said cautiously.
"Why would I turn around is something there" I asked. She had sadness in her ora I didn't understand.
"Just don't turn around okay let's go we can just leave I mean, its last period no need to stay" she said persuasively.
"You okay" I asked she nodded. I got up than followed behind her than I remembered I left my phone on the table.
I turned around and saw Cole kissing some red haired girl, his tongue was down her throat and they were enjoying it. I felt a sharp pain blow through me as if I'd been punched. I can't believe this right now, he just- but he couldn't- but he did what do I do. I turn to run but Kat was there she embraced me in a huge hug, than guided me outside into the parking lot.
"He-He-He just I can't...even believe this I think I'm going t-t-to be sick" I stuttered out my eyes were filled with tears rolling uncontrollably down my face. Kat held me tightly.
"I know sweety, I'm so terribly sorry shhhhh" whispered Kat soothingly.
"My heart hurts Kat its breaking into a bazillion pieces and its all because I fell for a lycan" I said. Kat guided me to her car. Than taking me home.
I laid in bed for hours at a time as my lycan howled for me to be happy. Kat had to leave so I curled up in a ball under my covers, letting the darkness surround me. I hate that I love him, because I can't let him go my lycan can't handle it. It'll break him. But he just broke me and the betrayal is playing through my mind making me cringe.
"I feel so dead right now" I said to myself quietly. I dozed off for a while falling into a comfortable sleep.
When I woke it was night, I wonder what time it is? I looked at the clock its barely 10 at night. I went downstairs into the kitchen grabbing a bowl, spoon and a tube of vanilla ice cream, than went back to my room.
I turned on my TV than looked for something to watch, after about 10 minutes I settled on 'Twilight'. I was almost done with my bowl when I heard my phone vibrate. Kat was calling, so I pressed ignore, in kept on with Bella and Edward jumping from tree to tree. I didn't wanna talk or think, or even live, just be alone. So my heart can hurt with no one to watch or hear it.
