How I Lost You ;; Seungkwan [ON HOLD]

ix. 나인

{ c h a e m i }

Aggravated
-; how I felt as I woke up.

"Confusion once shattered me,
But now one thing was clear,
Truth is I'm hurt inside,
But he the one should realize."

;;

When I woke up. A strange realization welcomed me. All the happenings yesterday had flash backed in my mind. What a morning. But then my mind was clear. Seungkwan has to realize his mistake. He should now how much he has messed up my day.

I need to mess him up, too.

This feels like having a revenge. I'm so mad of what he did to me yesterday. I deserve an explanation for that. He didn't even text me.

Half of me was expecting him to call me or what. He can't just leave me hanging.

I want to punish him with my silence. I am not going to text him. Never.

I hope my absence kills him.

;;

10:00 am

And he hasn't texted me till now.

Oh god Chaemi what were you expecting.

You can't wait for him. You hate Seungkwan, Chaemi.

But why am I feeling disappointed?

I guess he's just that irresistible for me. I have to admit it.

But still. He needs to suffer with my ignorance. Shush.

;;

Maybe he just hates me now.
Maybe everything is different now.
Maybe I can't change things anymore.

Even though I'm still unaware of what's the problem.

I mean, everything at that point was better, but then he suddenly was acting weird. Like what was even the problem? Why can't he just tell me?