How I Lost You ;; Seungkwan [ON HOLD]

xiv. 퍼틴

{ s e u n g k w a n }

Unacceptable
-; not pleasing or welcome.

"My heart never accepted the reality,
As for it yearned for something better,
Better than just close friends,
It mourned for some love between us."

;;

I'm happy that at least we have made up.
But something inside still bothers me.

The fact that we can't be us.

The fact that there can never be an us.

We were only just friends and only friends.
And it broke my heart.

;;

The bus ride home was quite silent. Because I wasn't satisfied of myself. I feel like I should tell her about my feelings. But the other half of me was resisting me to.

And then the old couple said "Are you guys a couple? You look so cute together!"

Well yes I know that.

But Chaemi looked shocked. As much as I want to answer yes, I can't so I answered "No, we're just friends. Close friends."

And it broke my heart every time we were addressed as friends.

I felt Chaemi sigh disappointedly while fiddling with her hands.

And then I found myself drifting off to sleep.

Did I disappoint her again?

;;

When I woke up, Chaemi wasn't by my side anymore.