The judge {Robert Downey Jr} UNDER EDITING

Douglas

*Leighton's pov*
I entered my house, finding Ed sat on the couch watching tv.
As soon as he saw me  he smiled.
I felt horrible.
I had covered all the marks Robert had left me but I still felt horrible for lying to Ed so much.
"Hey baby." He said, I sat next to him and sighed.
"Everything ok?"
I shook my head
"Ed I'm an horrible person" I said, he looked confused.
"Why?"
I took a deep breath
"I had sex with Robert, the other day. And today I almost gave him a blowjob." I said, he looked surprised. His shocked face then turned to anger
"What the fuck is wrong with you" he yelled getting up from the couch.
I looked at my hands and shook my head
"I have no fucking idea. Ed I'm so sorry, believe me." I said. He ran his fingers through his hair.
"I left everything to come run after you, Leighton. I picked up the broken pieces he created and you thank me by fucking him?" He said, I felt tears come up to my eyes.
"Ed I'm sorry." I said, he shook his head
"I know I'm a fucking bitch. But I love him, Ed." I said
He threw his hands to the air
"Oh! You love him. Oh okay so that's okay. What about me Leighton? Do you love me?"
"I do"
"So why did you go and fuck another guy?"
"Because I'm stuck, Ed! I'm stuck between you and him and everything is so devastatingly impossible and I don't know what to do" I yelled getting up from the couch
"So what now? Huh? You can't have us both" he said
"I know"
"Whatever Leighton. I'm done" he said and started walking to our room. I followed him
"What are you doing?" I said desperately
"What should I do, Leighton? Should I stay here while you fuck him behind my back? Do you think I deserve that?" He yelled
"I don't" I said, he nodded
"Well, okay then." He said and started packing his bags.
I stood there, speechless.
I didn't know what to do.
When he finished packing he looked at me
"I'm sorry things turned out this way, Leighton." He whispered
"I'm sorry I'm an indecisive piece of shit" I said
He grabbed his bags and started walking. I followed him to the other room. Before he opened the door to leave, he turned to me.
"Leighton. You do realize he has a family? He has a son, another one on the way! He's not the right man for you.
He's gonna hurt you bad someday, worse than last time. But I won't be there to hold you anymore. Open your eyes. Are you just his sex wish, or are you something more?" He said. Before I could answer he was gone out the door.

I drove to the only place I could think of. My face was full of fresh and dried tears.
I parked my car and got the flowers from the passenger seat.
I started walking and dried my tears.
I knew what road to take even with my eyes closed.
I knew that place so well.
I sat on the grass, and placed the flowers in front of me.

DOUGLAS MEESTER

I read the name on the tombstone.
"Hey" I whispered, putting my hands where the name is  written.
"I'm a fuckup, Doug." I said, shaking my head.
More tears fell from my eyes but at that point I couldn't care less.
I lit up a cigarette and put it right in front of the tomb.
I lit up another one for me.
"Cheers, Doug." I said.
I sat in silence for a bit, remembering when we used to smoke together.
"I miss you so much, you know?" "You left so early. I needed you, I had things to tell you." I said
"You left me and i'm a screw up.
Sometimes I wish I was in your place and you were here. You deserved life more than I ever did." I said, drying the tears on my cheeks.
"Are you mad at me for not going to dad's funeral?" I whispered
"I know what you would of said.
>>Nobody deserves to be forgotten. Not even the worst person on the earth.<< Isn't that right Doug?" I said
"But you know what? He forgot me.
I never forgot him. I never forgot you. Or lex or mom or anyone but I'm stuck here all by myself because you're gone and Lex isn't around anymore and mom hates my guts." I said
"Why did you go? Douglas why did you feel your life among every other one was the most insignificant?"
"I should be dead, Doug. I understood that I don't deserve any of this." I said

"Yes you do"
I heard someone say from behind me.
I jumped and turned around.
He stood there.
"What are you doing here, Robert" I said
"Making sure you're okay" he said
"How did you know I was here"
"Followed the car."
I was speechless yet again.
He looked sad and I could see pity in his eyes.
"Leighton" he started, but I shook my head.
He walked closer to me.
Before I could react his body was holding mine, my head was on his chest.
I started crying and he put his chin on my forehead.
"I wanna be in his place, Robert! It's just too much" I yelled. He gripped me tighter.
"It's been eleven years Robert, and I still haven't figured out why he did it." I whispered against his chest.
We stayed like that for a while, but then he pulled away.
"I told Ed. He left" I said
"You didn't need him anyways." He said
"Are you gonna break me like last time, Robert? I don't know if I could survive something like that again."
He shook his head
"I'm gonna sober up. No more drugs. No more alcohol. No more unmeaning -full sex. I'm gonna do it right this time" he said, I nodded. He grabbed my cheeks and lightly kissed my lips.
"I love you." He said
"I love you more"