The Heart Doctor ✔

Chapter 16: I Should've

FRANZ

I dash off after I gave her a peck on her cheeks.  Ano ‘yun Kiss and Run? Pumasok agad ako sa kotse, at pinaandar ito. It’s been so long since I saw her, wala na kaming communication sa isa’t-isa. Well yeah, nakikita ko siya. Ako lang ang nakakita ha! Hindi siya, occupied palagi utak non eh---Her pretty head. I miss her so bad, kung pwede lang siyang yakapin muli at halikan! I really can’t believe that it’s been freakin’ three years since we broke-up. And it broke my heart, hindi lang halata. Dang it, I sounded so gay! But when you’re inlove with someone hindi talaga maiiwasan ‘yun. Now where did it came from? I just shook my head because of these thoughts. I turn-on the stereo to hear some music, to calm my nerves after that beautiful lady—I mean incident earlier.

Why am I mad? I don't get it.

It seems like every time 

you give me signs and I miss it

I did it again, I admit it,

I left you standing there,

And now I regret it.

Great,now  this song! Damn you! Chris Brown for writing this song. But I salute you ‘cause you know how I feel right at this very moment.

Wait? Did I left her standing there? Of course,may kotse siyang dala! Alangan naman, isasakay ko din ang kotse niya sa kotse ko? Seriously, knowing Thia?  Tigas ng bungo nun, kaya paminsan-minsan para pumayag dinadaan sa dahas! Joke lang. Stoney heart din ‘yun! During the year I courted her—Oy, akalain mo ‘yun year! Hindi kase tumalab sa kanya ‘yung ‘Franz’s Style’ Nonetheless, I love her.

Seems like every time I get the chance,

I lose my cool and I blow it,

And I get all tongue-tied, Lost in your eyes,

I'm a fool, and I know it!

Marami-rami narin ang nasayang na pagkakataon in a span of three years. Throughout the years, marami narin ang nagbago,  I’ve been hearing great news about her---courtesy of my older sister by 5 minutes of course. Ate, have been my eyes and ears for watching Thia. I can’t get enough of her.

I should've kissed you,

I should've told you,

Told you just how I feel,

And next time I won't stop,

I'll listen to my heart,

'Cause what I feel is real.

I should've kissed you,

I should've told you how I feel,

I should've kissed you,

I should've showed you just how I feel

I should’ve. Yeah, I should’ve prevented that situation; if I weren’t such a coward things would be easier. I should’ve told her what I feel from the beginning, now I think it’s too late.

No I did not,

Give you my two cents,

A million reasons why I should have,

And it makes no sense,

So here I am, by myself again,

Stopping for green lights and I know,

I wanna be more than friends,

How come every time I get the chance

I lose my cool and I blow it,