Control:
•The power to influence or direct people's behavior or the course of events.
•The power to restrain something, esp. one's own emotions or actions.
Control...
Ask a hundred people and almost everyone will have a different definition.
To someone with an eating disorder, it's about having power over everything. It's and absolute necessity. It's about always being the one in charge of your life. no one else.
Control what you eat.
The calorie intake everyday.
The number on the scale.
What people see of you.
What they think.
Everything.
Without it, there's nothing.
Others will be in charge. that cannot happen.
Ever.
It's its own world of destruction.
It's panic, when you don't possess control.
It's stress, when you lose track of how many calories you've consumed.
It's bending over that toilet, after you've lost control of what you had to eat.
It eats you, when you yourself aren't.
To recover, requires relinquishing your control.
To be free you have to relinquish your control.
Freedom.... or control?
Freedom....
Or control....
Freedom...
Control....
.........
Freedom.
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It's Up to You to Save Yourself
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My Friend Ana
PoetryPoems, rants, and thoughts about eating disorders, depression, abuse, personal struggles, and many other subjects that society dawns as "taboo".
