○someone save my soul tonight○
{Frank's P.O.V}
It's been about two weeks since Mikey and Alicia came over and Bandit was on a downward spiral. She hardly left the basement and she didn't really eat at meal times and to be quite honest, she's just getting skinnier and skinnier. The kid was suffering, and we didn't know how to make it stop.{Bandit's P.O.V}
"Hey, if you want to meet up later, we can." Asher suggested scratching the back of his neck nervously."Erm, I-I don't know Ash." I stumbled turning him down but trying to be light about it.
"Come on Bandit! Come out with us, we can do whatever you wanna do," Seth wined at first but then started getting slightly excited.
Asher flashed a smile back at me.
"Im sorry guys but I'm just gonna go in and crash out!" I explained trying to force a yawn.
"Oh, well - maybe next time then, yeah?" Doug asked but it was more of a you are coming along sort of way.
"Maybe. Thanks though, bye guys." I shrugged and half hugged both Seth and Doug before climbing to my tip toes and hugging Asher then breaking away as he tipped my head back using a classy finger under my chin and kissing my lips softly. I kissed back then broke off since we were outside of Frank's so I went in and ran upstairs to the bathroom dumping my stuff by the front door.
I took off my red and black chequered shirt leaving me in my black vest top and my black ripped jeans. Damn I need more wholes in this belt. I threw my shirt on the floor and then started to gather up my dark, wavy hair and wrap my bobble around it putting it up into a ponytail. I then ruffled the top a bit as my bangs started to drop out and fall down the sides of my face. I stepped onto the scales and held my breath for what was to come.
89lbs. Finally thin!
I stepped off with a smile across my face. I was about to turn around and head out but then I saw them glimmer and shine in the light. It was like one of those cartoons where the confused character has an angel on one shoulder and a devil of the other and as always, they were so contradictory.
A)Please don't do this
D)You NEED to do it, you deserve it
A)No you don't, your thin now - it's what you wanted right?
D)Ha, not thin enough. Why wouldn't you? I mean you're still fat, you're disgusting, you're ugly, you're just lowlife scum that just exists when in reality no one wants you around. You're the reason Gerard started drinking again, you were and still are just too needy!And the devil won . . .
(T.W)
Somehow, I just ended up there stood by the corner cabinet where they were hidden. I don't even remember getting there, I just sorta teleported. I lifted the stack of towels up and slid the razor blades from under them. My philosophy was that no one ever gets to the bottom towel, it never gets used because the pile always gets topped up after the laundry is done so basically, they wouldn't get found. I clenched them in my hands tight enough that I now have a cut on the inside of my finger where the blade pierced my skin. I slid down the cabinets and brought my knees up, resting my arm on my knees. Vertically, I dragged the blade down my arm until the tears in my eyes blurred all my vision as well as the blood trickling out of the cuts and all over my arm and dripping down on the floor. Sh*t! I stayed sat there blubbing my eyes out. I think I was the only one in. Cherry and Lily had some thing at school, Frank would've probably gone to pick up Miles and Jamia would, actually I don't know where Jamia would be but oh well I guess. Eventually I stopped crying and the blood flow slowed down a little, but honestly, if it didn't stop now; I'm going to pass out and someone will end up busting the door and finding me here like this. I grabbed my shirt with the good arm and slid up the door but had to stop as I stood since I got really light headed. Once that had passed, I started wrapping my shirt around the wounds to try and stop the blood. Man it hurt like a b**t**d! I held my arm close while with the other, I frantically ran around grabbing a sponge and some water and scrubbing the blood off of the tiled floor. It came off with a hell of a lot of elbow grease and time so I got back up, still extremely light headed, and ran downstairs and to the basement and changed, taking the shirt is wound around my wounds and continued erring it with a hoodie over the topThe sad thing is, a couple days after I got here, I managed to stop sort of and now since Mikey came over to see what happened, and school starting back up, it got me stressed out again so naturally, I cut again.
(E.O.T.W){Lily's P.O.V}
I got home after chior practice and took my stuff up to my room."Lily!" I heard mom call from downstairs. Ugh just leave me alone please for once! I left my room and headed downstairs to see what she wanted.
"Yeah mom?" I asked finding her in the kitchen making dinner.
"Do me a favor sweetheart, can you go grab some laundry please?
"I was just upstairs, couldn't you have yelled it instead of making me come down here?" I sighed adgitated. Then added on "Why couldn't you have called Cherry instead anyways?"
"Lily don't do this, just go and grab some laundry for me and put it on." She sighed too grabbing something from the fridge before returning back to the stove.
I stomped back upstairs and opened the door to the bathroom. I walked on in and went to the basket where the dirty laundry was next to the cabinets and took a pile out, oh, why don't you look at that, a full dark load I thought to myslef scooping it up. I turned back and felt something fall out of my grasp so I bent down to pick it up holding the rest of the laundry with one arm. I picked the sock up but then noticed a blade beside it. What the! I turned slightly but kept my eyes fixed on the blade and dumped the laundry on the floor in a different spot. I turned my body back around facing the blade. It was covered in blood that had slightly dried. I scooped the laundry back up with one arm and with the other, picked up the blade and ran downstairs running to the kitchen. I got there and dumped the cloths infront of the washing machine before I turned to mom.
"Lily please! -" she started with a sigh as she stared at me with the disappointment face.
"Mom, I found this in the bathroom by the cabinet!" I rushed out showing her the blade.
Her face was pure shock and to be honest, if i could see my face, I'd probably look the same way.
"Tell me honestly hunny, this isn't yours is it?" She asked gently with sadness in her eyes.
"If it was, I wouldn't have come and shown you." I answered but a worried expression appeard on her face so I dragged back my hoodie sleeves and showed her my wrists, "I don't."
"Okay hun, it's okay we'll get this sorted. Can you please put the laundry on? Dinner will be ready soon." She flashed a weak smile and took the blade off me. Her voice was gentle but nervous.
I did as told and then went up to my room and played around on my phone forgetting the whole thing, sort of.
I heard mom yell out for Cherry which resulted in her rolling off the edge of her bed and basically army crawling to the door where she eventually pulled herself up and went down. You're so lazy!
About five minutes later, I was called down again but this time for dinner. I went down and took my seat at the table. Mom was so insistent on 'eating like a normal family' except, we're not normal so it doesn't work out. Cherry and I sat together with Miles and Bandit opposite. Mom sat on Miles' side at the head of the table with dad opposite on my side. I think everyone except for Miles was watching Bee eat, or how little she ate. She pushed most of her food around the plate occasionally eating something but I'm guessing that was just to keep everyone at bay.
Mom and dad were talking with Miles at the table and Cherry started nudging me in the ribs. I looked round at her.
"Did mom ask you about the blade?" She whispered as quietly as possible. But it was too late, Bandit looked sharply up at the two of us. She waited a few seconds before muttering a 'thanks' and then ran upstairs.
I gave Cherry the sarcastic 'well done!' look and nodded in answer to her question.

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