The Unexpected

Silence

I sighed as well. I was not quite sure of the unleashed consequences that would occur once I opened the door, but I still did so. I carefully moved my hand away from his, put the key in and unlocked it. I opened the door widely and turned the light on without hesitation.

I entered without looking back, expecting the unknown that was building along the night. Without notice, Ben turned the light off. When I turned back, I could only see his silhouette formed by the corridor lights, disappearing while he closed the door behind him. We were at silence. He slowly started closing the distance between us. Each second being nearer, and very step of his becoming stronger, and my heart mercilessly pounding at his pace. Once he reached me, he stopped. We were looking at each other, waiting for the other one to take the first step... And I finally did. I grabbed his hand and walked with him towards the large window. We both looked at the city with its bright lights, and people passing by without being noticed by others than us both. A world of things occurring outside, and we were here, indoors and inside each other's minds.

He was making me nervous and he knew it. I opened my mouth to say something, but my own mind betrayed me as words were not pronounced at all. All I was capable was inhaling this moment, entering deep inside me, closing my eyes while doing so. Once I opened my eyes, I looked at Ben, and I pulled him towards me, kissing him and cupping his cheek with my other hand, exhaling all my feelings onto his lips.

He did not correspond at first, shocked by my unexpected move... But then he kissed me back, hugging me, and then pulling me up, passionately, bringing me even closer by tightening his grip all over me, and letting me wrap my legs around his waist.

He walked us to the bedroom, where he laid us down. The sounds of kisses and moans were filling in the room. I could not wait any longer, so I took his jacket off. He leaned back, sitting on his knees, staring at me while taking his shirt off as well, and showing me his bare skin.

I exhaled once again, fascinated by him, and still not believing he was here. He leaned forward, slowly, and started kissing me again, leaving room between his chest and mine so I could touch him. And so I did. My fingers caressed his face, and carefully moved down to his neck, his shoulders, and finally lowering to his chest and abs.

While I did this, Ben was touching my outer thigh, running his fingers upwards, caressing my skin and making me moan in his mouth. Then, he leaned back again, but now towards my leg, and kissed it. At first it tickled, but as he stared at me while doing so, my loins started to burn, and the tickling became fire.

He bent down and put my leg on his shoulder, kissing my inner thigh without taking his eyes off of mine, and with every kiss, he was getting closer to... There. Reaching, reaching, reaching...

And then stopping. He exhaled, sounding exasperated by his own inner demons. He shook his head, as denying some thought in his mind. Then, he leaned next to me and said:

-I want you so much, but I really need to control myself. I don't know what you do to me, but you're driving me insane.-

I looked at him bewildered, not being able to understand a single thing: at first we were all over each other, and now he wanted to stop?

-Look, I really want to be with you, but I don't want this to be just sex, I want this to be special.-

Wow, I did not see that coming.

-I feel an overwhelming desire to wrap my arms around you and make love to you all the time, and I feel this is getting beyond my control.-said Ben, while rubbing his forehead, trying to comprehend his own words.

-I understand. I also want this to be special. Let's stop for tonight.- I said.

I actually did not want to stop, but I did not want to force him to be with me tonight.

Ben sat down and put his shirt on, then came back to bed and cuddled with me. His fingers were tracing lines in my arms, not saying a word at all, until I could not help myself and drifted off, sleeping through the night.