Move ↯ Verkwan

05 pt. 2

Hansol's Point Of View

I promised to myself that I won't, even a millisecond, care about Seungkwan's performance. I promised to myself that I will never affiliate with any of his likings. There are lots of things I promised to myself but here I am, standing infront of the auditorium where Seungkwan's performance will be held.

Mga limang minuto na ata akong nakatayo dito, nagiisip kung papasok ba ako para manood or tatambay nalang ako sa library para matulog sa sulok ng isa sa mga shelves dun (just like what I always do).

Well... di ko naman siguro ikakamatay kung manonood ako ng performance nya diba? Baka ikabingi ko lang? Pero naisip ko din, kapag pumiyok sya o pumalya, mapagtatawanan ko sya at mapapanood ko kung paano sya mapapahiya sa harap ng maraming tao.

Oo gusto ko syang makitang mapahiya kaya manonood ako.

I entered the auditorium and find a good seat at the end row, farthest from the stage. Mahirap na, nasa may harapan kasi yung mga kaklase ko na susuporta kay Seungkwan, I don't want to them to see me.

Hindi naman ako masyadong nainip dahil saktong pagkapasok ko ay nagsimula na ang program. It started with a prayer, tapos nagspeech at ayun na nga, kakanta na si Seungkwan.

Since naka incline ang seats, nakikita ko parin si Seungkwan kahit malayo ang seat ko mula sa stage.

He's wearing a long sleeved white polo, dark blue jeans, and a pair of Vans shoes. Nakaayos din ang buhok nya. He's smiling wide habang nililibot ang tingin sa crowd. Nang makita nya ang grupo ng mga kaklase ko (nagsisigawan kasi sila para icheer si Seungkwan) ay kinawayan nya ang mga ito.

He looked... different.

Nagiba ang aura nya sa stage. Different from the annoying Seungkwan that I usually meet.

Badump

Seungkwan signalled and the instrumental started to play.

nae salme yuilhan Romance neo useul ttae
saljjak ollagan ipsuri joha
salmyeosi nae pare angyeo niga jami deundamyeon
modeun ge meomchun Paradise

He's smiling while singing the first part. He was looking at each and every audience in the whole auditorium. It's as if he's dedicating the song to the audience. It's as if he's singing to make his audience feel good, and he just did.

saebyuknyeoge kkeuteul mannamyeon achimi dwaejjulke
jeonyeoknoeuri jimyeon neoye byuli dwieo julke
Now And Forever If you Want dali dwaejwo

Suddenly, our eyes met.

Lumaki ang mga mata nya saglit, siguro nagulat sya pero agad din naman syang ngumiti ng mas malawak at nagpatuloy sa pagkanta habang nakatingin sa akin.

gangbyunbuklo wireul dallyeoseo
jigeum neoege kago isseo
uri saien yuteon eobji
neol boreo ganeun gil maeimaeili saerowo

Badump

I held my chest as I could feel my heart beat fast. Mas mabilis pa sa normal nitong tibok. Mas mabilis kesa sa tibok nito pagkatapos kong tumakbo. And it almost hurt me, in a very pleasing way.

This Seungkwan... this kind of Seungkwan is driving me crazy...

niga bulanhal ttae
himggeot anajulke
mamggeot ureodo dwae gwaenchana

Nang tumingin sa ibang audience si Seungkwan ay napahinga ako ng malalim.

Wow... hindi ko manlang napansin na hindi ako nahinga habang nakanta sya, habang nakangiti sya sa akin at kumakanta.

niga bulanhal ttae
himggeot anajulke
mamggeot ureodo dwae gwaenchana

This isn't right.

Agad akong tumayo sa upuan ko at lumabas ng auditorium. Still having this fast heart beat and this huge lump inside my throat.

I went straight to the wash room, opened the fauset and splashed a huge amount of water using both of my hands into my face. Usually, ito ang ginagawa ko para mahimasmasan ako. Para sana kumalma tong puso ko. Para sana bumagal.

But when I closed my eyes once again, I saw that image of Seungkwan. Singing with his face full of emotions and his angelic voice inside my head.

I looked at my reflection inside ny mirror.

For this time I admit that entering that entering the auditorium... almost killed me.