Move ↯ Verkwan

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Seungkwan's a smart kid.

He might not be good at English but he excels on so many fields.

Ever since, isa na syang achiever. He's also a good leader because of his good skills and his smart decisions that lead everything into perfect places.

But now, Seungkwan can't find that Seungkwan.

Seungkwan heaved a sigh before removing his seatbelt. He took his phone and his laptop bag and went off his car. He pressed his auto-lock key and walked until he reached the elevator of the basement.

Seungkwan stared at the elevator door blankly. He's physically present but his mind is definitely somewhere.

Iniisip ni Seungkwan ang mga sinabi nya kay Hansol at ang nangyari sa kanila kahapon.

It was a huge mistake.

Seungkwan wants to punch his self for doing that.

Maybe because he was too overwhelmed? Hansol just sang right in front of him while holding his hand. Hansol, his ex boyfriend that he missed so much, was just an inch away from him that time. His Hansol.

He admits that he felt relieved after that kiss. It's wrong, definitely wrong, but why does it feel so right?

Maybe it's not the kiss that bothers him this much?

Napatigil sa pag-iisip si Seungkwan nang tumunog ang elevator at magbukas ito sa harap nya, luckily, it was empty.

He walked in and pressed the number of the floor that he's heading to. He was about to press the close button nang...

"SANDALI!"

Nang marinig ni Seungkwan ang boses na yun ay agad nyang pinindot ang open button.

"HOO! Salamat Seungkwan!"

"Jeonghan hyung..." Seungkwan quietly said as he looked at Jeonghan.

Jeonghan was panting nang makasakay ng elevator. The door finally closed as he already composed his self.

"Buti talaga naabutan kita!" Halata parin ang pagod sa boses nito, halatang tumakbo ito para maabutan ang elevator.

Seungkwan just showed a soft smile. "Anong floor mo hyung?"

Jeonghan looked up to Seungkwan and cupped his cheek.

"Hoy..." he said at sinuri ang mukha ni Seungkwan na naiipit sa mga kamay nya. "... okay ka lang?"

Nagulat si Seungkwan sa ginawa ni Jeonghan ngunit nang marinig nya ang tanong nito ay unti-unti nang nagsimulang tumulo ang mga luha nya.

"Oh shit! Sinong nang-away sa baby Boo ko?! Sinong nagpaiyak sayo?!" Nagpapanic na sigaw ni Jeonghan bago nya yakapin si Seungkwan.

Seungkwan placed his chin on Jeonghan's shoulder and cried as Jeonghan slowly pats Seungkwan's back.

Seungkwan did not answer. He just cried and hugged Jeonghan tighter.

Jeonghan on the other hand reached for the elevator buttons and pressed the floor where their company's coffee shop was located. Kahit hindi umimik si Seungkwan, alam nito ang kailangan nya. Alam nito ang dapat nyang gawin.

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"Now tell me what happened."

Jeonghan and Seungkwan was sitting on a table for two.

Tinitigan lang ni Seungkwan ang Velvet cake at frappe na inorder ni Jeonghan para sa kanya. He didn't answer the question dahilan para mapabuntong hininga si Jeonghan.

"Okay lang kung ayaw mong sabihin sakin, but please... please know that you're not alone my dear," Jeonghan said in a soft tone.

Seungkwan raised his head and showed a sad smile to Jeonghan.

"Nahihirapan na ako hyung..."

Seungkwan wiped the small tears that escaped his eyes after uttering those words. Jeonghan on the other hand just looked at Seungkwan and made Seungkwan feel that he's listening to whatever he's about to say.

"Hyung hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong gawin..." Seungkwan continued and sniffed. "I-I don't want to hurt Wonwoo..." he could feel another drop of tear that's about to fall matapos nyang banggitin ang pangalan nito. "B-But I also don't want to hurt myself... I-I also want to be happy."

Jeonghan moved his chair beside Seungkwan and slowly massaged the latter's back.

"P-Pero di ko rin naman kayang maging masaya kung may masasaktan akong tao."

Seungkwan took a deep breath.

"S-Sobrang bait ni Wonwoo sa akin. A-Ayoko s'yang saktan," he wiped his tears again using his hands. "P-Pero mas masasaktan ako tuwing magkasama kami... n-nakukunsyensya ako... k-kasi sobrang bait nya sakin... p-pero di ko masuklian ng tama yung ginagawa nya..."

"And it's all because of Hansol?" Mahinang tanong ni Jeonghan habang hinahagod parin ang likod ni Seungkwan.

Seungkwan covered his face as he sobbed and slowly nodded.

Jeonghan hugged his bestfriend. "Shhh... Seungkwan... it's okay..."

"N-No hyung... i-it's not okay." Inalis ni Seungkwan ang yakap ni Jeonghan sa kanya. "It's not okay kasi ang gulo kong tao. It's not okay kasi hindi ako makapagdesisyon ng tama. It's not okay kasi..." he sighed as he felt the lump on his throat. "Kasi... all this time... s-si Hansol parin hyung."

Jeonghan sighed.

"I'm not good at giving advices Seungkwan pero isa lang ang masasabi ko sa'yo ngayon..." Seungkwan looked at Jeonghan. "Follow this thing right here..." Jeonghan added and pointed at Seungkwan's chest na katapat ng puso nito. "You might hurt someone. You will definitely hurt someone. You just need to choose who's that someone that you're going to hurt."

Seungkwan avoided Jeonghan's gaze and faced the table once again.

"Seungkwan, I know it's not easy. Alam kong sobrang hirap pero mas lalo mong masasaktan si Wonwoo kung hindi naman sya ang taong mahal mo."

Seungkwan was hit by Jeonghan's words.

They both went silent hanggang sa biglang tumunog ang phone nya.

Kinuha nya ito at tiningnan kung sino ang tumatawag. His tears started falling once again dahilan para hablutin ni Jeonghan ang phone ni Seungkwan para tingnan kung sino ang tumatawag.

Jeonghan answered the call.

"Sir Wonwoo, Seungkwan's on the way to your office now. He have something to tell you," Jeonghan said on the phone as he looked at Seungkwan.

Seungkwan gawked at him and tried to steal his phone but he failed dahil naibaba na din agad ni Jeonghan ang tawag.

"Move. Have some mercy for yourself. Isang taon ka nang nasaktan, I saw how you've changed simula nung naghiwalay kayo ni Hansol. Yes nagtop ka sa engineering board exam pero hindi na ikaw ang Seungkwan na nakilala ko simula nung nagkahiwalay kayi. And Hansol's the only person who could bring that Seungkwan back, not Wonwoo, not any other guy," mahabang litanya ni Jeonghan habang seryosong nakatingin kay Seungkwan.