He looks at me with a face that is nothing but pure sadness and fear.
"Gwen I'm in Nashville two weeks from Thursday." Blake says
"Wait which event is this? Can you reschedule?"
He is standing in between my legs while I remain sitting on the counter, my hands on his chest. My heart had sank to the pit of my stomach. I knew he couldn't but I couldn't stop myself from asking, I was scared to do this without him.
"I really really wish I could. Fuck! I promised Zuma to and now I'm gonna have to back out. He is gonna hate me." Blake said his hands coming up to comb through his curls
"He won't hate you Blake. That boy loves you so much. We just need to sit down with him and talk about yesterday and this. I wish he hadn't fallen asleep so fast last night I wanted to talk to him then. I don't know how I'm gonna do this without you."
"Damnit maybe I can call my manager and see if we can put the opening off a day."
"Blake we both know that's not an option. I'm gonna have to do this alone. It's not like he is gonna be there. As much as I hate it, we will be ok."
"I was gonna go to the ranch from Nash for a few days but why don't we all go next weekend. We can spend a few days at the ranch and then a few days at the lake."
"That sounds amazing cowboy."
I lean forward planting a kiss on his lips before snuggling into his chest. His arms wrap around me, holding me tight to his chest. It never fails to amaze me the calming affect this man has on me.
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That night we get all the kids tucked into bed except Zuma. We intentionally went to him last.
"Hey Zuma can daddy and I talk to you?"
"Yeah" he says hesitantly probably picking up on the nervous tension
"Buddy we wanted to talk to you about yesterday."
"I'm sorry mommy please don't be mad at me I won't act like that anymore, I promise."
"Woah little man, we aren't mad at you at all." Blake says
"Your not?" Zuma asking with a surprised face
"No buddy but we do want you to tell us what's going on. You were pretty upset and we want to know why so we can help you. We don't want any of you kids upset. We want you guys to be happy." Blake answers
"I've always told you boy you can talk to me, and daddy, about anything. I mean anything Zuma. Even if you did something bad you can still talk to us." I tell him
"I don't know I just wanted to be with you guys. If the judge doesn't believe us, we are gonna have to go stay with Gavin and I don't want to. I want to stay here. Why is he doing this to us? Can't he see we are happy and that we don't want to see him?" Tears run down his cheeks and I pull him into my lap.
"Shhh baby it's gonna be ok." I rock him back and trying to calm his nerves even though mine are running wild
"Zuma I know all of this with Gavin is hard on you guys and I wish you didn't have to go through any of it. But I want you to know that no matter what the judge says I will do everything I possibly can to keep you guys safe ok?" Blake tells him
