In my mind pools a river of regret
cloaked in the foreshadowing of my mistakes,
that renders me wordless.
It all stemmed from the words
that you carved into my spine using your
blade like nails.
Your foul mouth has brought me nothing
but abundant misery, that lies,
coated in dew like droplets
of honey.
I blame myself,
for all the missed opportunities,
spent wallowing away
in the corner of my empty bedroom
that screams in agony
of old age
that shows through the peeling wallpaper
that digs beneath my nails
when I attempt to scrape it away.
When everything stills,
I scream a silent scream
to mirror that of my environment.
To everyone
it's a scream where my mouth is wide open
but no sound can be heard.
To me —
it's a scream buoyant with agony
a violent plea
that begs for the help of others.
A scream so loud, it tears up my insides
and
causes my throat to burn.
A scream that causes my body to punish me
with the resulting aftermath
of a killer headache.
In my mind I am screaming at them all,
in retaliation for their sickening words,
for their shattering actions,
for all that they've done to me,
but all they see is an open opportunity
to push me further and further towards a cliff
that bears no end.
I am so close,
so close,
t o
losing
it
a l l.
ŞİMDİ OKUDUĞUN
Starry night skies (completed)
ŞiirUnder the canopy of a thousand stars, she found that her hands sang the words of her tender heart, the notes captured perfectly in pages that were stained a deep brown. cocooned in the embrace of a hundred constellations, ...
