Tough Love

Part 18: Emotional

Brian's POV

Sal. That's who would text me so late at night.

Sal: I need to tell you something.

Q: I'm trying to sleep. What is it?

It was a few minutes before he responded.

Sal: Nevermind.

Q: You piqued my curiosity. Please tell me.

Sal: I love you

Q: Are you drunk?

Sal: Tired. I love you

Q: Love you too. Night

Sal's POV

He said "love you," not "I love you". Does he truly love me? Am I being paranoid? I'm probably being paranoid. He's said many times that he's not into any of that romance shit. Then again, normally I'm not either. But sometimes I wonder if he really does love me anymore. We still haven't had sex. We mess around, and his therapist sessions have definitely helped him, but he still won't go all the way. It's the most agonizing thing ever. And since we haven't been connected in a physical way like that, I feel like he's growing more and more distant. And now he has that stupid bitch living with him!

I feel that twisted feeling in my gut. I know it all too well; jealousy and anger. I decide that I need to know the truth, and I need to know it now, so I text him once more, expecting it to end badly as per usual.

Third Person

Sal: Come to my room? I'm in 492.

Brian can't believe it. It's midnight for god's sake! And after all that Sal had been pulling the entire tour? Really?! But, nevertheless, he puts his robe on quietly and makes his way down to Sal's room. Sal opens the door in his boxers, looking a little off. "You okay Sal?" Brian asks.

"Yeah, I just..." He pulls Bri into a tight embrace and kisses him hard. "...needed to do that," he says once they break apart.

"That's all you needed? A kiss?" His words hurt Sal. He didn't need a kiss, he needs to be close to Brian once more. He needs to feel the connection that they once had in hopes that it's still there. Why can't Brian feel it?

"I need you." Sal's starting to get an unexpected boner, so he uses it to his advantage, thinking that maybe he could get his lover in the mood. He quickly pulls Bri inside his room and begins to kiss him again; slower, and with care. When Q instinctively puts his hands gently on Sal's waist, Sal takes that as a good sign, and slowly starts to swirl his hips. He backs Brian up against the door, which gives him more leverage and the swirling turns into grinding. Brian can't help but let a little moan slip out. He's starting to get excited and quickly forgets that he's supposed to be irritated at the lateness of the hour. He even begins to move his own hips with Sal, and slips his tongue into his mouth. They stay like that for a couple minutes, almost dancing together, before finally neither of them can stand it any longer. Q shrugs off his robe and they both slip out of their boxers before plopping onto the bed in a mess of limbs and kisses. But suddenly, Sal stops.

"What's wrong?" Q asks.

"Nothing. I just... Bri, I need you to try it."

"Try what?"

"To have - y'know, sex." Brian's eyes widen and Sal quickly rushes on. "I just feel like it's been so long. I feel like I'm going nuts and I can't stand it. I love you, but I just can't ignore this anymore. Can you please just try? It's like your therapist said last week. We've figured out how to calm you down if you panic so we have nothing to lose from this point on."

"But," Brian says quietly, "she also said that I should only do something if I feel comfortable doing it. And you don't know what those panic attacks are like, Sal. How could you ask me to go through that again?"

"I'm not, but damnit Bri, I love you. And not being able to really make love with you is driving me crazy."

"Why didn't you tell me this before?" Brian asks, his eyes growing with sorrow. He knew he was hurting Sal. He knew it all along, and yet he couldn't do anything about it.

"I tried, but I didn't want to rush you. That always made things worse." Sal can't look him in the eye. He feels horrible, but he simply can't ignore his feelings about this any longer. He expected Brian to get upset and then they would start fighting again. They did that so often now, he wondered if it would ever stop. So when Brian pulled him into a heated kiss he was quite surprised. Brian gently pushes Sal so he's laying on his back before slowly kissing down his body. Sal's dick actually twitches in anticipation and his gut burns with desire. He feels Brian's hot lips close around his tip so he closes his eyes as the burning sensation intensifies. It nearly grew painful as Q continued pleasuring him.

"Babe," his voice is weak and his breathing shallow. "I'm gonna blow..." But Q already knew Sal was close, and he also knows that if Sal cums this soon, there was sure to be another round afterwards. So he doesn't exactly stop; rather, he repositions them so that they're in the 69 position. If Sal was surprised before, he's utterly shocked now, and gladly takes as much of his boyfriend as he can into his mouth.

Sal begins thrusting upwards, causing Q to gag on him a little. And then suddenly Q is halfway down his throat which brings tears to Sal's eyes, but he loves it. He missed it, even. So much so that it quickly topples him over the edge into that blissful state that makes him just want to scream "Fuck me already!" That is as soon as his mouth isn't full of Q's cock.

Q gets off of Sal and repositions himself. However he still isn't sure if he can go through with it. Sexual things have gotten easier for him, but the thought of full on sex still makes his pulse quicken; thud, even. And his lungs always tighten up, and the air always felt about ten degrees colder. He was sure that as soon as his tip touched Sal's ass, he would be teleported back to that night. And that terrified him.

Nonetheless, he had to try.

"Oh fuck yes!" Sal actually screams once Q had finally entered him. "Right there! Yesss!"

Q's shocked. He just - He can't - It's not happening? He can still see Sal? What the actual fuck?!

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Heyo!

Wassup? I gotcha what you've all been literally BEGGING me for! You're welcome.

HOLY SHIT they're finally doing it! I wasn't planning on having them do the deed for quite some time yet, but let's be honest we can't go that long without a sex scene from these two. I'm sorry I put you all through that torture! Trust me, it was horrible on my end as well. But, I have a story to tell, and that story involves some conflict in this area. Please forgive me!

Anyways I don't even know what to think about this chapter. First Sal's pissed, then he just HAS to have Q, and Q's not even experiencing normal things so just like... WHAT?! There's just all this confusion between them and I can't even make sense of it. Would any of you care to clarify what's going on in their brains right now?

Please vote and comment! Thanks guys, you rock! (isn't that something that people said in the 90's/early 2000's? Have I really been on this planet that long? Wow...)