Insane

Chapter 19

WARNING
SELF HARM/ SUICIDE

Peters POV
Felix knocked her out with his club.
I frowned
What have I done?
She was the only girl to love me, and me to love back. Ugh if Wendy had kept her mouth shut!
I picked (y/n) up bridal style and the boys walked in front of me, sad. They had liked (y/n) but now she wants to leave because of me.
I put her in a cage and I just left Wendy on the beach. I just couldn't deal with her right now. I've never felt so sad in my life.
Ugh what have I done.
Your POV
I woke up in a cage confused, then it all came back, tears brimmed in my eyes as I shook the cage.
I blasted fire at it but it didn't even move
Ugh it's enchanted.
"Let me out!!" I screamed with a cracking voice.
How much of an idiot I was.
UGH
Peter appeared and my expression turned from sadness to pure, and UTTER anger and disgust.
"Let me out you roach." I spat.
Hurt flashed through his face.
"(Y/n), I came to apologise"he said nearly in a sigh.
I put my hands on two bars, and brung my face closer.
"Your apology means nothing." I said in disgust.
"(Y/n) please!" He pleaded
"No, Peter. I get it. I completely get it." I said and tears welled up threatening to spill.
" get what?" He asked confused
"That your just like everyone else. Once I get to much for you to handle you just get me to go fuck off. I'm great at first but then you get to know that I'm just too. Much. WORK." I slowly started to scream my words in the middle. I was breathing hard now.
"(Y/n) that wasn't it, I swear!" He pleaded again.
"Then tell me Peter." I whispered.
"What was it?!" I shouted at him and he stepped back, but stepped forward again.
"I-I don't-" he said but stopped.
I laughed and shook my head at him.
"Your one piece of work Peter." I said in disgust.
He looked so hurt
It almost made me feel sad for him.
Then I saw the devil herself. Wendy.
She had a black eye and her nose was bleeding, as she stumbled over to Peter.
"Oh." Wendy smiled at me.
"You caged the psycho." Wendy flashed me an evil smirk.
"Don't make me get out of here and make sure YOUR EYES MATCH!!" I screamed the last words.
She was scared now.
"Little girl scared?" I mocked her.
"No. Your the one that is caged." She spat.
"Ugh. My god!" I screamed. "PETER JUST LET ME OUT!!" I yelled and shook the cage.
"I can't risk you leaving..." he said and looked down.
"Why!" I shouted at him, outraged.
"(Y/n)!!! Why do you have to be so stubborn!! And annoying!!! And hard!!!" He screamed in my face.
How could he say that to me? What is wrong with him?
I could feel my eyes go blue.
He realised what he did when my eyes turned.
"(Y/n) I-" he tried to apologise but I put my hand up to silence him.
Without thinking the cage disappeared and Peter stepped back surprised.
I was floating in the air staring at him.
I put my feet on the ground with my expression not changing.
I pushed past the surprised pair and walked away.
Not saying a word.
Peter didn't say anything and let me go. Probably going back to his little bitch Wendy.
I can't believe he is so.... so mean.
I closed my eyes and appeared on the top of a cliff.
I single tear roamed down my face.
I felt...... nothing.
Empty.
And I did what I always did when I was empty. To feel something, anything.
A knife appeared in my hand and I slit my wrist.
I watched the blood trickle down my arm as I stared at my arm full of scars.
The tears now flowed like a waterfall.
Mimicking the waterfall beside me.
I slit the other wrist and now they both matched.
I slowly turned to the cliff.
I slowly stepped to the edge.
Tears flowing freely.
I put both my arms out and blood dripped to the ground.
I felt the wind blow the hair out of my face.
I looked down and cried harder.
I saw the waves crashing on the rocks below.
I looked up and slowly tilted forwards.
I felt myself lose control as I was close to falling  off the edge.
I let another tear go loose before I heard Peter cry out my name.
But it was too late.
I was falling.
Something grabbed my bloody wrist and hauled up my crying, whimpering, shaking body.
It held me and let me cry into its chest.
It put its hand on my back and put its head on the top of mine while I cried.
I looked up to see Peter. I cried harder and tried to run off the cliff but he held me too tight.
"Let me go!!" I yelled through tears.
"No!!" He roared and pulled me back.
" I want to die." I said and cried harder.
"Why can't you just LET ME if I'm SO FECKING HARD AND STUBBORN AND ANNOYING!!??" I screamed my words like my life depended on it.
He looked so sad.
Good for him. The tears still fell from my eyes at fast rate.
"What happened?" He asked and held my wrists.
I looked into his eyes and I guess realised what happened.
"Oh, (y/n)" he said and pulled me into him and hugged me.
"Never make your own scars" He said to me and I pulled away and held myself.
"Well your the reason" I sniffed
"You made the scars." I said and backed towards the cliff.
"(Y/n) I said I was sorry-"
"Well sometimes sorry doesn't cut it!" I yelled.
"My whole life I've have people reject me." I whispered high enough so he could hear.
"A-and when I came h-here. I thought- I thought that I had found people that wouldn't reject me." I stuttered.
"We didn't reject you (y/n) I swear." He said
"Yeah?! Well why didn't you come back for me, THE DAY, I, left?!?" I asked him and took another step back towards the cliff.
"I-i" he stuttered
"You don't know?" I spat.
"No..." he said ashamed
"Exactly." I said and took another step towards the cliff.
I was two steps away from falling.
My wrists still bled as I spoke.
"You even replaced me." I said with a cracked voice I was so sad about the words that I was saying.
" why did you EVEN bring me back? Ya got bored of her?" I said as I backed towards the cliff again.
One more step and it's over.
"I don't know!" He yelled. "Now get back here!" He shouted taking a step towards me.
"Wrong answer." I said and stepped back, falling backwards.
I felt the hard bang against the water.
I sank to the bottom.
I opened my eyes.
I slowly rose to the surface.
"Why am I alive?!" I screamed.
"Because the island doesn't want to kill you!" Peter shouted at me from the rocks.
"Well it's ME killing ME so it has nothing to worry about." I said and walked onto the rocks, then pushed past him, soaked.
I climbed up a tree and jumped off.
A branch caught me
"Oh, COME ON!!" I yelled.
"I didn't ask you to!" I screamed at the tree.
It lowered me to the ground.
"(Y/n) please stop." Peter pleaded.
He took a step towards me
Phf
Nope
I put my hand out and stopped him with an invisible force.
"(Y/n) please!" He yelled.
I could feel another presence and I forgot about peter.
I turned around to see Wendy.
She had a knife.
There was still a force on Peter
" Jesus you won't go away, will you?!" I screamed at her.
"Let go of Peter!" She yelled at me.
I laughed at her
Wow she has guts.
"I respect your bravery. But honey a knife will do nothing." I laughed at her.
Wow this was actually funny
The first time I laughed in a while. It felt good.
I turned my eyes red and she lunged at me.
I flicked my fingers and she fell to the ground in pain.
"Don't test me." I said and stopped torturing her.
"Your a psycho!" She yelled at me
I could feel the anger rise in me.
I pinned her to a tree by her neck.
"Your just proving what I said." She managed to get out.
"Well I just DONT LIKE PEOPLE POINTING IT OUT!" I shouted at her and crushed her neck with my fingers.
She couldn't breathe so I let her go and she coughed holding onto her neck.
"Peter! Your just going to let her do that?!" Wendy yelled at Peter and I let him go and sat on a log near by to watch this.
"Yes." He said angrily.
"Ugh PETER! Why can't you just love me?!" She yelled.
I laughed. Like really laughed it wasn't even fake.
I fell off the log laughing and peter smiled to see me so happy.
To see my smile again.
I stopped laughing and got up to see them looking at me.
"Are you done?" Wendy tapped her foot on the ground
"Phf" I laughed "Peter wai can't you luv meeeeeeeeee" I mocked her and laughed harder nearly falling over again.
"I'm sorry but like HOW was I ment to-" I laughed more "not laugh?" I laughed as I said it and I sat down because my back hurt, from again
Laughing
"Oh and this is why I'm insane,....btw." I said and stopped laughing.
Peter was smiling at me and I stuck my tongue out at him,  he smiled wider.
I could feel myself forgive him
NOOOO
DONT
U
DARE
AH
Control
Yourself
(Y/n)
DAMMIT
THE SMILE
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I wanted to melt.
"Peter!" Wendy yelled
"Huh?" He turned to her.
"Was that kiss on Tuesday nothing?" Wendy said
It's..... Friday... today.....
I stood up and stared him in the eye.
"What?" I said and he looked at me.
"(Y/n) we where drunk." He said and stepped towards me.
I didn't step back
I wanted to believe him
"You mean YOU where drunk." Wendy said and folded her arms.
"Poppies do weird things to ya luv." I said and patted her shoulder and walked back to camp.
I've decided to forgive him. But I will make him suffer a lil more.

I reached the camp and everyone smiled as I entered.
The youngest boy called Harry ran over to me and hugged me. I patted his head and hugged him back.
"Your back!!" He shouted and jumped up and down.
"Yeah." I laughed.
"What took you so long?" Devon came over and asked.
"Ask Peter." I scowled.
"Why? What happened?" He questioned.
"I don't wanna talk about it." I said and looked down.
"That's ok." He hugged me and I hugged back. Devon is really sweet when you get past his competitiveness.
Peters POVVVVV
I walked in with Wendy and saw (y/n) hug Devon. He obviously has a crush on her but she is too oblivious to realise it.
I felt my blood boil but I just sat down on a log with Wendy. Hopefully making her jealous.
She didn't seem to care.
She just talked with the boys and they all laughed with her.
"Okay" I said and stood up.
"What about we play a nice game of truth or dare." I said looking at (y/n)
"Sounds tame for you Peter." She scowled and folded her arms keeping eye contact with me.
I hate it when she is mad at me.
I didn't notice but I think it is because Wendy is beside me.
"Well what do you say we take a bit of drink with it?" I asked and the boys whooped. Me and (y/n) kept eye contact while they all got in a circle.
She broke the staring competition and sat in the circle.
Me and Wendy joined the circle and we all took some alcohol.
Devon dared (y/n) to down the whole cup of alcohol and she did it straight away.
She is definitely drunk now.
It was (y/n)s turn now.
"Peter." She said with her drunk expression.
"Dare." I said.
"Kiss Wendy." She smirked and folded her arms.
Fuck.
Your POVVV
I smirked at him flashing my eyes a red colour, intimidating him.
All the boys whooped and cheered for him to do it and he kept his eyes locked on mine.
He turned around and kissed her for 7 seconds.
I counted.
Oh god
I know I dared him... but like I didn't really want him to...
It made me sick.
Wendy smiled and I could see all the boys didn't like her
The simple expression on their faces said it all
I was happy it wasn't just me. Everybody seemed to give peter odd looks.
Even FELIX seemed a bit odd about Peter doing that.
Peter then asked Devon and I gave him a look of death
"Truth" Devon chose
"Do you like (y/n)" Peter sent a glance my way.
"Like in a friend way?" Devon asked blushing.
"You know what I mean." Peter smirked.
"No...." he said quietly.
"I know when people are lying Devon." Peter said smugly.
"Then yes I do." Devon said not making eye contact with me
Oh
I did NOT know that
Then again
He is cute
He has lots of freckles but that's what makes him so cute
And he is just 1 inch taller so it was really perfect
Now to think about it I think I could go for someone like Devon. PLUS he knows I'm insane and stills likes me
It's so sweet.

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