Letters to Ghosts of the Past

Midnight Pondering

To the one I trusted with everything I am,

Here I am, alone and scared
Thinking back to when you cared
You act like you don't know what's wrong
You do, and yet, you string me along

For what
What cause
Do you pretend to care?
Why
Just why
Do you pretend you're there?

Do you remember how broken I was
When the last one walked away?
I believed you cared, but no one does
You never planned to stay

Maybe I should give up trying
I'm meant to be alone
I've waisted to many moments crying
And now I'm cold as stone

Not long ago, you'd be concerned
Now you couldn't give two shits
In recent weeks, you've lived and I've learned
The loser always quits

So here I am, my last words to you
Remember me? All that I'd do?
That's gone now, I can't tell who's to blame
Those pictures, all set up in flames

You could have saved this, you and me
Now it's too late for you to set me free

I won't go down without a fight
But for me that's always been to write

The only thing I've ever trusted
'Till you came along
I left my faith, it came back rusted
Now I know I was wrong

I believed in you, placed my faith in your hand
But you turned me away, let this be my last stand

Sometimes I want to leave you
To show you how I feel
The next moment I wish you were here too
And I can't tell what's real

All good things come to an end
Everyone loses their best friend
That's happened to me twice
But maybe after thrice
My heart will start to mend

You don't want to leave, I see it in your eyes
But you also don't want to stay
So why not say our goodbyes
Then go our separate ways

Tell me you love me while you still can
Don't want to end up hating you
Leave if you want, I can handle it again
But stop trying hide from the truth

Walk away before we're pulled under
Leave me, alone, and torn asunder

Walk away, make it clear, tell me why this all went down
Explain, without fear, why you left me to drown

The worst part is you know
Can't help but think you want to let go

So let go.
Set me free.
You'll be happy.
I won't breathe.

Don't ask me to say I don't love you
I won't be able to
Don't tell me you didn't forget
Don't tell me that you'll regret

There was bound to be a last goodbye
So welcome to the end
You can't tell me that you tried
But you were my best friend