Loves a Fight

Chapter XXX Kains P.O.V

My heart contracts painfully.
She is deathly pale and shaking with so much fear.
I can't do this any longer.
Why was I even doing this?
She is right about me....

I drop the knife from my hands and rush to her.
I untie her and try and show her that it's ok.
That I was just trying to scare her.
She told me I was as bad as her father....
That fucking hurt.

She jumps away from me curling in on herself.
She slides to the floor in a heap of sobs in pain.
Physical pain.
Did I hurt her?

Her scream makes my heart twist painfully.
The boys are running down the stairs.
Fists pound the door.
I hear him...
Whatever he is pleading for me to let them in.
Adrian must just get really pissed off because he broke the fucking door.
They all flood into the room.
My eyes haven't left Noel the whole time.
What have I done?

Joey runs to her and wraps her up.
She clings to him for dear life.
I get slightly angry but then remember what I did.
I pale at the realization.

"What the fuck are you doing!?!" He picks up the knife and throws it right next to my face.
I don't move and continue to look at Noel.
I...

"Kain!?!" He yells blocking my view of Noel.
A low growl escapes me.
Adrian looks absolutely livid.

"Are you psychotic!?!" He shoves me against the wall.
I just look at him not knowing what to say.
Was I psychotic?

"Please Joey! It hurts! Please..." She screams into his chest.
The air is sucked out of the room.
I hurt her?
I promised her...
She told me I was this way, but I didn't believe her.
She told me what I was doing wrong and I am doing it again.

Adrian turns to Noel with pain etched in his features.
He walks to her and tries to sooth her.
She stiffens and grips Joey even harder.

"Back off!" Joey yells.
Adrian flies away from her.
He looks wounded.
He doesn't want her to be scared of him.
She is one of the most important people in his life.
If she gets hurt he will skin whoever did it.

"Joey if fucking hurts..." She cried into his chest.
My world is falling apart and I only have myself to blame.

"What hurts Noel?" He tries to help her.
He tries to make her look at him.
She cries out in pain and he retracts his hand so fast.
He begins to panic.

"They all burn..." She cries.
I realize what I did.
She is reliving everything that sick fuck ever did to her.
I am making her relive all of her pain.
My eyes fill with tears.
What have I done?
There is no way for me to fix this is there?

Joeys eyes snap to me.
All I see is pure rage.
He looks like someone I have met before.
His eyes are dark, so dark they almost resemble mine when I'm pissed.
I look at him trying to remember.

"You sick son of a bitch..." He growls and it clicks.
He is Joey.
That fucking Joey.
The one that runs a gang on the other side of the fucking country...
He came back here...
For what?

"Nooo!" She cries and pulls him back to her.
He looks at her with a look of pure failure.
His eyes are dull and desperate.
She is falling apart in his arms and all he wants to do is kill me.
I know he could.
I know what he is capable of.
She doesn't.
That's why she still loves him.....
She loves him?

It feels like a knife was thrown at my heart.
Then my heart was lit on fire.
She was officially done with me.
I fucked everything up.
I lost her....

Joey wraps her in his arms as gently as he could.
He lifts her from the ground and everyone goes silent.
She wraps her legs around his waist and buries her head in his shoulder.
He carries her away from me.