Loves a Fight

Chapter XXXVI Kains P.O.V

"You know what Noel! Just don't fucking say anything alright it's what your good at!?!"
I know right when I say it that I had gone to far.
Her shoulders stiffen and she looks so defeated.
She scoot as far away from me as she possibly can.
Her eyes full of tears that remain unshed.
Somehow after all this time I still end up hurting her.
Maybe that's why she left...
She knew no matter what I would always hurt her...

The car stops and before I can say anything she jumps out of the car.
I wish I would have fucking said something...
Now she is upset and I'm an asshole...
She runs until she slams into Liam.
He looks at her like she is a piece of shit.
She finally snaps and begins to cry.
Seeing her cry makes my heart hurt.
I never wanted to see her cry again.
Then she left me and now I don't know what to feel.
I still fucking love her, but I feel like I shouldn't...
I feel like she doesn't deserve me to love her...

She shoves past Liam and walks into the home.
I follow after her slower so she won't notice.
She enters the room I once gave her and I lean against is listening to her cry.
Her cries twist at my heart everytime.
I can't seem to shake the feeling of totally fucking up again...

The shower starts and I step away from the door.
She isn't fighting me to leave.
Why isn't she fighting me?
A long time ago she would have cried and screamed to leave.
What changed...

Walking into my room I decide what I should do.
She is upset and I don't know wether to talk to her or leave her alone like she did me.
This may be stupid, but I feel it is the best route.
I need her to see how devestated I was when she left me in that bed by myself...

I stay in my room and leave her alone.
For the next few days I will ignore her and treat her like shit so she knows exactly how I felt.
Might not be the best idea, but it's all I have to show her how broken I was.

NOELS P.O.V

I wake up feeling the feeling of sadness locked around my ribs.
This isn't what I wanted if we ever met again.
I feel like he never really cared at all and that hurts.
I throw on some yoga pants and a huge hoodie as I leave my room.
Walking down the stairs into the kitchen I find Kain making his own food.
I know he knows I'm there, so why is he ignoring me?
Whatever...

I go to the fridge and open it.
He comes up behind me and slams the door shut.
I jump away from him.
He is being to agressive towards me.
I don't like this side of him...
I miss his loving side...
The side that helped me after our fight in the ring.
I miss the side that only wanted to make me happy and promised to show me how much he loved me....

"You don't need anything Noel... When you left I didn't eat for weeks. Now you do the same..." He growls in my ear and I move away.
With my eyes locked away I look up to him.
I wouldn't make him feel like this...
I would have ran into his arms and kissed the shit out of him if I were in his shoes...

"Ok..." I whisper and spin away from him.
What he doesn't know is that I would go days and even weeks without food when I lived with my father.
This is nothing more...
I don't like comparing him to my father, but I guess that will always be something I do.
He isn't like him, but I feel like I will never be able to forget everything that my father ever did to me.

I walk to the living room and lean against the wall.
Kain walks in and sits on the couch.
I don't know wether I can sit on the couch or not so I stay put.
Luke freezes at the bottom of the stairs when he sees me.
Me and Luke were never close and I don't expect him to treat me any better than the rest because of them...
He never really liked me before anyways...

"You can sit on the couch right?"he asks with a small smile.
Seeing someone smile at me makes my eyes water.
Why is he being nice?
I thought everyone had to hate me...
His smile is absolutely perfect to me.
I really haven't ever seen him smile until now...