Allodoxaphobia ♅ Viktuuri

30) ''YOU IDIOTS!''

OMG! It's already part 30! As a celebration, I've put something in here that I'll think you'll all very much appreciate, although, still might cause some minor annoyance- couldn't make it all happy XD Enjoy!

Yuuri, for the first time in months, was feeling confident. He had been veering towards the dark tunnel again and somewhere along the road, he had driven past it. He hadn't felt this good in a long time. He tried not to think of the inevitable crash at the end of his drive.

Lunchtime was in session and after eating lunch with his friends, he had left to go see Viktor, his friends whistling suggestively as he left. Despite the embarrassment, he couldn't help but be amused at his friends' antics. 

Viktor was in the classroom when he arrived, not that he had expected any different, but looked unusually shocked when Yuuri walked in. 'Yuuri! I thought you weren't going to come, you were late.' The goofy Viktor was back and Yuuri let out a relieved sigh. Throughout all the problems recently, Viktor's self seemed to be dulled and Yuuri couldn't help but blame himself for the transition. He seemed that he had nothing to worry about. The smile seemed true enough.

Enough.

'Oh yeah, well, um. I ate lunch with some friends before I came here.' Maybe Viktor was right, Yuuri probably didn't need him anymore. 'But, I wanted to talk to you before afternoon lessons start.' Viktor nodded, his smile not as wide as before. Viktor hid his emotions well but not well enough.

Again, enough.

'Well, you're bi, right? I want to know, how did you tell your parents?' Viktor's eyes widened but his smile grew just a bit, was this what he thought it was? Was Yuuri finally doing it. I mean, Viktor knew about his sexuality by now, he was sure many people did but telling his parents was a big step as well as being a validation to Viktor. Yuuri had never outright said it or at least, when he did, never with so much confidence.

He finally sounded like he believed in himself.

Viktor couldn't be more grateful.

'I was quite outright about it but they had known long before I told them. I was never subtle. I simply stated it at dinner, they nodded and that was the end of it.' Viktor paused, the night flashing quickly before him. That was not how it went exactly but he liked to pretend.

He told the truth in most factors but his parents' reaction...it had been more than just a simple nod. Yet, they still helped him out financially, did they not? That was enough. That showed their love, right?

And, they said Yuuri was the naive one.

'But, I can tell you a few things. Your parents love you and however you tell them, they won't mind. Be confident in yourself and all will be okay. My parents aren't the most understanding of people but they came to terms with it almost immediately and knowing your parents, they won't see you any differently for it.' Viktor smiled, trying to push down the guilt of lying to Yuuri's face once again. But, if it instilled hope, Viktor would be glad to do it again.

A white lie never hurt anybody.

'Thanks.' Yuuri whispered, looking up through black lashes with a small smile. 'I think I'm going to tell them soon.' Viktor smiled back, giving as much reassurance as he could. He jumped off the desk he sat on and approached Yuuri, who was sitting on the desk opposite. 

Viktor approached and stopped when he was only inches away from Yuuri. He was standing close, a little too close. Anticipation drove Yuuri's heart wild. It beat erratically, feeling like it wanted to do nothing less than escape its cage and splatter Viktor in the love he deserved. The love that Yuuri didn't believe he could give.

Viktor almost didn't know what to say. He didn't understand why he had approached. As he so often did, he had acted on impulse. He let in those thoughts of Yuuri and had ended up so close that their breaths touched. If their hearts were strong enough to beat out of their chests, Viktor was sure they would be touching in the middle. 

'You don't know how brave you are, Yuuri.' It came out so suddenly, no louder than a whisper. Quiet enough to send a shiver down Yuuri's spine. 

'Brave?' He whispered in return, his voice quiet enough to hide the slight tremble in his voice. Yuuri didn't trust it, he knew he often blurted out things he didn't mean. Now was not the time.
'Uh huh.' Viktor assured, the h's blowing small bouts of breath onto Yuuri. 'Braver than anyone I've ever met.'

'Coming out is something that people do every day, Viktor.' Yuuri replied, blocking the compliments as if they were a disease but Viktor wouldn't have it, Yuuri needed to understand.
'Not that. Well, that too. But, everything. Your entire life. You've fought absolutely everything. You've gone through highs and lows and now, look at you. You're finally accepting yourself, Yuuri. And, I couldn't be more proud. You're so brave, please, don't ever forget that.' Viktor finished with a large breath, a gentle smile on his face. They leant together, their lips so close that the friction between them was almost palpable.

'I don't understand how you think that.' Yuuri whispered, his insecurities getting the better of him.

'I don't understand how you can't.' Viktor's arms wrapped around Yuuri's neck. Neither understood what was happening. Their hearts beat as one and they closed in. Their lips still remained apart and both were attacked by that slight hesitance. But Yuuri didn't pull away.

They were the earth and the moon, trapped in an ever-lasting orbit, never quite able to pull away enough to free themselves. They rocked back and forth between love and fear but they always ended up in the same place.

Here.

Yuuri gently brought his arms up and around Viktor in reply, testing the position before settling into it. He looked up, watching the eyes that had trailed him for so long. Their foreheads gently touched and suddenly, their lips were no less than millimetres from each other. They breathed heavily, the anticipation getting the better of them.

Their hearts beat the drum of them, the patterns not the same but together, a harmony worth listening to. They made a song of silence and neither had the heart to think rationally about it.

Their lips brushed, a feather-light touch to both of them. Viktor leant in for more...

'YOU IDIOTS!' Yurio was at the door and that growl was less than happy.

Yuuri let it sink in, what he was going to do. What he wanted to do.

F*ck. 

word count: 1116

published: 24.07.17