One Stupid Mistake

Simula

Simula

"Finally, an alone time with you." Idan said as he smiled and approached me. "I'm really lucky to have met you."

"Yes, you are a one lucky bastard." I grinned at him. Niyakap niya ako and I returned the hug. Naamoy ko nanaman ang pabango niya. Yung pabango niya na kilalang kilala ko. I'm really comfortable being with him.

"Thank you for coming to my life Psyche." He said sincerely. "You will always be the best girl for me." I gave him a small smile.

"Don't say it like like you're not a married man." I told him with a teasing warning tone. He laughed.

"I heard that." Sabay kaming lumingon sa taong nagsalita. She shook her head as she walked her way towards us. "Kung hindi ko lang kayo kilala pareho, I would've thought that you have an affair." I rolled my eyes at her.

Bumitaw sa akin si Idan at tumabi kay Sofia. He kissed her forehead. Sofia has been my bestfriend eversince our elementary days, she studied abroad during college pero hindi nawala ang communication namin. Idan is my best pal during college. The catch is, I'm secretly in love with him. And today, they got married.

Yes, I am in love with my bestfriend's husband.

"Thank you Psyche." I smiled at Sofia. "This would've never happened if it weren't for you."

"Of course. I'm your cupid." I sarcastically said. They both laughed. I looked at both of them, they are really compatible with each other.

I love them both. They are both so kind na halos ihambing ko na sila pareho sa santo sa sobrang kabaitan. Pero ako? I'm their opposite. I love freedom. I love adventure. Yun din siguro ang dahilan kaya hindi ko na ipinilit pa ang sarili ko. They deserve each other.

"You will always be our best friend Psyche. Best best bestest friend." Idan said with a warm smile. "We both wish for your happiness too." I didn't said anything and just smiled at the both of them.

They were called by the wedding organizer for the program. And I just shooed them away.

"Bestest friend huh." I murmured to myself. Of course. I will always be just the bestfriend. The stupid bestfriend who didn't have the courage to tell him how I feel. The stupid bestfriend who didn't want to break her bestfriend's heart when she fell in love with Idan without knowing that I fell in love with him first. The stupid bestfriend who's now the maid of honor at their wedding.

Tinagay ko ang baso ng alak sa harap ko at umorder pa ng isa. Medyo nag dalawang isip pa ang lalaki sa bar counter dahil pang ilang baso ko na to.

"Dahil lang sakin kaya nagkakilala kayo." Tumingin ako sa bagong kasal na nasa gitna ngayon habang masayang masaya sila na kinakausap ang mga bisita. I took another shot.

"So it was because of you." Napatingin ako sa taong nagsalita sa gilid ko. Hindi ko na masiyadong makita ang mukha niya dahil nahihilo na din ako.

"Oo dahil sakin." Sabi ko at sabay na uminom ulit.

"Idiot." I heard him mumble. Pinaningkitan ko siya ng mata.

"Anong sabi mo?"

"I said you're an idiot." Pag uulit niya ng may matigas na tono.

"Aba't—" Hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko dahil humarap siya sakin tapos ay umirap. "Antipatiko." Saad ko nalang at nagpatuloy sa pag inom.

Gusto kong mag wala. Ako dapat yun eh. Ako dapat ang kasama niya diyan sa harap ng nga tao. Ako dapat ang nasa tabi niya. Kaso ang tanga tanga ko. Wala akong ginawa. Ako pa ang naging dahilan kung bakit sila ang magkasama ngayon.

"Why are you crying?" Tinitigan ko ng masama ang lalaki. Bakit pa ba to nandito?

"Pake mo ba?" Umirap nanaman siya. "Irap ka ng irap bakla ka ba?" He glared at me. Great. Wala na bang ibang mangyayari na mas ikakasama pa ng loob ko ngayon? Dumagdag pa itong lalaki na to na wala nang ibang ginawa kundi sumimangot sa harap ko.

"If you're that in love with him, why did you let them get married in the first place?" Maya maya ay sabi ng lalaki na halata ang pagka-sarkastiko sa tono ng pananalita niya.

"Because they're happy together!" I snapped.

"Idiot." Napapikit ako ng mariin at kinakalma ang sarili ko. For goodness' sake nakainom ako, baka manaya maihampas ko sa ulo niya ang basong hawak ko.

"Bakit ka ba nandito? Sino ka ba?" He just shrugged. "Don't tell me galit ka sakin dahil may gusto ka din kay Idan?" Tumingin siya sa akin ng nakakunot ang noo. "You're gay aren't you?"

"Stop provoking me, woman. I might prove you how manly I am." Balewalang sabi nito.

"It's okay." Nakita ko sa peripheral vision ko na humarap siya sakin. "Tanggap na ngayon ng society. Equality right?"

Napapitlag ako nang bigla siyang tumayo at lumapit sa akin. "What—" bago ko pa matapos ang sasabihin ko ay bigla na niya akong hinalikan sa labi. I must've been so drunk because I found myself kissing him back.