The Demons {COMPLETED}

Chapter 9

-Rachel's P.O.V-

He is leaning in to kiss me, his eyes are closed. Why am I not moving? I can't let this happen. I push him away. He startles and I look him in the eyes, I want to kill him and I want to cry. I run away from him. I run and run and run till I'm home. I get to the couch and I cry.

D1: this is why you shouldn't go under bleachers with boys
D2: Rachel for god-sake why are you crying?
D4: I think she's overwhelmed
D5: I agree with D4
D1: Rachel I know what would make you feel a whole lot better
Rachel(in her mind): what?
D1: cut yourself
Rachel(i-h-m): why?
D1: fight pain with pain

I get up and think about what my demon said, "fight pain with pain." And that's what I'll do. I go to the bathroom and I cut. I cut my thighs. 6 cuts. Three on each thigh. I clean up the blood and put bandages on.

'Ting'

Em: hey Rachel, can I come over
Rachel: no, you can't
Em: why?
Rachel: you just can't, I'll see you tomorrow
Em: oh :( I'll pick you up tomorrow then
Rachel: sure okay
Em: bye Rachel
Rachel: bye Em

I didn't want to shut Em out but I had to. I needed to be alone.

-A few moments later-

I regret not kissing him. Why did I pull away? Why oh why? Ugh. I just need some rest.

-Blake's P.O.V-

Why did I do that? Of course she'd react that way, things aren't the same. I regret that so much.

(These are Blake's demons.)

D1: you're an idiot
D2: did you honestly think she'd actually kiss you? Pathetic
D1: she'll never love you, after what you did
D2: after what they did
D1: yep
D3: can y'all shut up
D1: CaN y'AlL sHuT uP
D3: efff you
D1 & D2: hahaha

I have to make it up to her. But how?

(So the "A's" are angels, meaning they're good)

A2: why not say sorry?
A1: just say sorry

I'll say sorry. But how?

A1: really?
Blake(in his mind): yes really
A2: just say "Rachel I am sorry for the way I acted. I know things aren't and won't be the same but please find it in your heart to forgive me."
Blake(I-h-m): that's so good
A2: I know... that's why I said it

The plan is in motion.
The door swings open and it's my mom. She looks extremely tired.

"How was your day mom?" I say.
"I need to sit down and relax."

She goes and sits down. I bring her some water with lemon and ice with greek salad, her favorite. As I go to the kitchen in the corner of my eye I can see her devouring her food. When I come back 5 minutes later she is fast asleep. I take the plate and cup to the kitchen and I take her high heels, her jacket and jewelry off. I take a blanket and put it on her. I kiss her on the cheek and dim the lights. I go up to my room and I change into pj's. I get my laptop and start my dreadful homework. I finish it before 8:30pm, giving me time to FaceTime Molly.

Molly: hey cousin
Blake: hey cousin
Molly: how's the school treating you?
Blake: it's been one day.. (haha)
Molly: a lot can happen in a day
Blake: how come I didn't see you today?
Molly: I was home, sick
Blake: shame Molls
Molly: hey, I just had a great idea
Blake: what?
Molly: I'll pick you up and introduce you to my friends
Blake: that sounds great
Molly: so who showed you around?
Blake: Rachel
Molly: Rachel is so sweet, but her friend Em is a different story
Blake: (haha)
Molly: I'm so sorry about Shannon, did Rachel bring it up?
Blake: no, I'm glad she didn't.
Molly: well cousin I have to go, we'll talk more tomorrow when I pick you up.
Blake: sure Molly. Goodnight
Molly: sweet dreams
Blake: I love you
Molly: I love you too cousin