For Everything A Reason: A Parmiga Love Story

Taissa's Secret

It had been one month since I moved out of Evan's, and tonight was the golden globes, but before I got ready I had to do something no other seventeen year old girl should have to do. I snuck out of Vera's house, which wasn't to hard because it was huge. I put on a large hat and headed to Walgreens. I parked the truck took a deep breath and walk through the doors. I went to the isle and grabbed the unwanted box, went to the register, and avoided any small talk. I drove back to Vera's and walked through the door. To my surprise she was standing at the door with her arms crossed. "and where did you go" she asked "stop trying to be mom I went to go get some nail polish to put on my toes" I lied. "well go upstairs you have a really big night" she smiled. "I know" I smiled back. I ran upstairs luckily my room had its own bathroom, so I brought my purse in and locked the door. I opened the box, and opened the unwanted white and blue stick. two minutes later I looked down to see a little pink plus sign and fell to the floor. I grabbed my stomach, and sobbed I didn't know what to do I was only seventeen, and what would my mom say, no what would Evan say. I heard a knock on my bedroom door. "Taissa are you almost ready, your hair appointment is in thirty minutes" Vera screamed. I wiped my eyes "yeah one second" I responded. its okay you will deal with this after the golden globes this is a big night. I grabbed the test and the trash and hid it in a old bag in my closet I grabbed my purse, and walked to meet Vera at her car. "sweetie what's the matter" Vera said giving me a hug. I really needed that hug. "just nervous and upset this is the last time ill see the cast" I lied. "its okay maybe you'll be back for season two" she reassured me.

When I arrived at the golden globes I only had one thing on my mind, mine and Evans baby. So, as soon as I saw him I once again almost burst into tears He waved at me and we walked down the carpet together. "how are you" he smiled. "not good im nauseous" I said "well were at the golden globes, and you look beautiful cheer up" he smiled and I nodded. "oh god im gonna vomit" I said running over to the trash can and puking. Evan walked over to me and rubbed my back. my manager came over and gave me some nausea medicine, but I denied it I didn't know what it would do to the baby, but I couldn't tell them that, so I told them it was just nerves.

After the golden globes I drove to Evans. I couldn't get this baby out of my mind, and I needed to tell someone. Evan needed to know about his baby. He would know what to do he always did he's the bravest person I know. As, I drove up to his house I noticed another car in his drive way a unfamiliar one. So, instead of barging in I peaked in the window. I saw Evan sitting on the couch with a beer, then Emma walked over to him and sat on his lap. I started to cry as she started to kiss him. I sat on the side of Evans house crying. That's why he had no remorse when I was moving, so he didn't have to sneak around while I was at work. I finally got up and got back in my car. I bawled the whole time I drove back to Vera's. When I walked through the door she was sitting by the fire reading a book.. I walked over to her "im pregnant" i said and started to cry. "Taissa, what are you going to do" she said grabbing my hands. "i don't know, i went to Evan's to tell him and he was kissing Emma Roberts" I screamed. "she hugged my and rubbed my hair. "its gonna be okay you just need to do what you feel you need to do and ill be here by your side the whole time" she reassured me. I nodded "I know what i have to do" i said grabbing my stomach. "what sweetie" she asked. "i have to get an abortion its whats best for Evan and i the media would destroy him, and after he just got a lot of fame from American horror story" i cried. "Taissa, don't think about him he's a dick he's getting laid and your making the biggest decision of your life" Vera started to cry with me. "its my decision I've got to get this abortion then ill never see him again" i cried. "okay then we will go tomorrow" she cried.

i walked out of the abortion clinic knowing Evan and mines baby was gone, but id never forget it. i knew id think of that baby everyday of my life. Id wonder where my life would be if i kept the baby if it was a boy or a girl, if Evan would have been in his or hers life, i wondered what id name it i always liked Ayden for a boy and Avery for a girl. id always wonder how the baby would have looked liked, or its personality. The decision i made would always haunt me. Id never tell anyone, not even Evan.