A Believer: Smiling Again (Vol. 2)

Record 10: Be Careful how You Behave

It is true,  that when others hate you there is also a point that you would hate yourself. 

I know,  it wasn't good but reality strikes,  I hate myself a real bad when others bullied me. 

I tried to overcome it,  but it happened always..

So my question now is,  how... How to overcome my inferiority complex?  Eight years ago,  I did overcome it.  I felt how special and blessed I am.  And Jesus is the reason..

Years have passed,  so many challenges and trials of faith.  At first I face them positively because I know God is with me.  But... One day,  I slip out of control. I neglected God and became unaware of my action,  I am sinning before God...and then trials come.. I am not confident anymore because I have my guilt I am holding on.  I am always insecure and think that other people are better than me,  that I am little,  and I am not good enough anymore. 

People shows hate on me,  and it got me a real wound inside.. Then.. I betrayed myself and believe them.  I hate them,  but I hate myself even more..

I again,  have my inferiority complex.  I can be positive.. But,  the real score is I never practice it.  I am still so scared inside.  Now,  I am going back to God again.. I know I shouldn't have leave Him.  But thankfully he never leave me.  He is always there, with his wide open arms,  ready to accept me. 

He understand my weaknesses.  He had forgiven me and he can change my life.  He can write a new and better chapter of my life.  So from now on I will trust only Him..

To you who are bullied like me,  God is always there.. He is faithful and true.  He will never leave you nor forsake you..

To you who are bullying,  you didn't know how your actions or words can greatly affect others.  Stop it before you regret you did it.  Jesus loves you too.  Have a meningful life..

God bless everyone!!