La Cuevas #2: Hazards Of Love (PUBLISHED UNDER IMMAC)

Chapter 26

Nakahiga ako habang tinititigan ang numerong ibinigay ni Wyatt kahapon. Sabi niya, bukas ay babalik na si Aries sa Palawan. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko sa tuwing naiisip siya. Grabe, hindi ako makapaniwalang siya ang kuya ko. Kaya pala ang bait niya sa akin kahit mukha siyang masungit.

Alam niya kaya na kapatid niya ako nung magkita kami sa Palawan noon? He approached me first, but I don't think he knew me already that time. Hay, ewan. Idagdag mo pa na ang lakas ng loob kong tanungin siya kung nilalandi niya ba ako noon sa event sa Manila. Nakakahiya! May girlfriend nga pala siya, si Tatiana. Well, I'm not sure.. but friends don't kiss, right?

Kung ganoon nasa Palawan ang pamilya ko? I was right there, so close to them already nung kasal ni kuya. May papa kaya kami? Or mama? Buhay pa kaya sila? I miss my mom.. tila may kumurot sa puso ko nang maalala kung paano niya ako alagaan noon. I miss the feeling of being sheltered and babied by a woman.

The way she nevre once made me feel like I'm not her own... it's something I wish that Sadie had felt too in the hands of those who sheltered her. Even though she acts like that, I feel bad that I experienced what she could have.

Pagkatapos naming mag-usap ni Wyatt kahapon ay pinaalis ko na siya. Oo at mahal ko siya, pero hindi pa rin maalis sa akin ang sakit na idinulot ng pagsisinungaling niya. I don't know.. maybe because the fact that he's 'someone' to me adds up to the pain I'm feeling inside.

Bumuntong hininga ako at tumayo para maligo. Nagtagal ako ng halos isang oras sa banyo dahil natulala. Yesterday, after I sent Wyatt away, my brothers both barged in and got rid of everything with sharp on my room. I can still feel how angry they were when they saw the blood stains that went cold and dry in the bathroom. I wasn't able to clean it properly so they did it themselves. They were sobbing while scolding me not to do it again. Tuloy ay wala na akong pang kilay at kahit anong matatalim dito sa kuwarto.

I even had to beg them not to confiscate my car keys. Iniisip nil ana puwede kong gamitin iyon para saktan ang sarili ko. I just promised them I won't do it again. Kuya Loren proceeded to clean my wound while his mouth did not stop scolding me. Tiniis ko ang mga sermon niya habang ginagamot ako at bibigyan niya pa raw ako ng antibiotic na ilalagay sa sugat ko araw-araw.

Nang lumabas ako ng banyo ay nag lotion ako at naglagay ng cream sa mukha hanggang leeg bago maghanap ng isusuot.

Pinili ko ang isang white halter top at ripped jeans. Pinaresan ko 'yon ng puting sneakers at nagdala rin ako ng denim jacket para takpan ang kamay ko. I blow dried my hair before doing it a messy bun and walk back to my bathroom.

I scanned my medicine cabinet there and grab the gauze pad, tape, and antibiotic ointment. I placed them on a clean cloth over the sink before washing my hands and rinsed the cut area with a tap water. I dried my hands using a clean towel before putting Neosporin on it to prevent further infections.