He reached out and took the box on to hand and opened it to see various types of blades,pills and a noose surrounding a journal.
He couldn't help it but just widen his eyes at the depressing content that just made his heart clench harder.
"Hyung....why are you doing this to yourself?....." hongbin muttered under his breath as he was still clueless on what had caused the now hospitalised leader to do and even posses such belongings.
"Hongbin hyung...what are you doing in here?" Hyuk asked as he came into the room,startling the older slightly with his sudden presence.
"I was about to clean up...N hyung's....blood on the floor...and found this box lying next to the puddle."hongbin replies as he exposes the box more for the younger to see the contents.
Similar to his expression,hyuk gasps in shock not believing that N would have things like those to harm himself.
"Is that N hyung's journal or diary?" Hyuk asked the older.
"Huh? What jour- oh.....I didn't notice it just now....Do you think he will mind if we read a bit of it? I mean,we have all seen him writing in it secretly whenever we were busy with...ourselves...."the older states as he realises and has a bit of a hint to what N did to himself.
Hyuk too realises as he heard what hongbin said.
"I think we should read it...i mean maybe we can understand N hyung better afterwards to why he cut himself....."
"Let's show and read it together with the others"hongbin then carefully takes out the journal carefully out of the flimsy black box.
Both of them heads to the living room seeing that their hyungs were all just like how they were sitting before when they came back to the dorm from the hospital looking dejected and crying quietly.
"Hyung,we found N hyungs journal...care to read it with us?"
Leo then slowly raises his head from his folded arms and ravi and ken immediately sat up straight upon hearing about their leader's name and the existence of his diary.
"I mean i know that its a private property but after what N hyung did to himself,maybe we would know what was going on..."
3 of them nodded their heads and the 2 younger ones sat down next to them while opening journal to its first page.They all couldn't help but notice the tear and shocking blood stained pages.
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✩~ CHA HAKYEON'S PROPERTY~★
DAY 1
Today was quite a tiring day but nevertheless quite rewarding since we get to have at least 1 week off for the New years after working so hard for the past few weeks.
I plan to ask the rest of they would like to go to the beach with me,hopefully they will agree since we have not communicated and messed around with one another that much due to all the interviews and practices.
Fingers crossed~
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DAY 2
I asked them just now but instead of replying yes or no...they ignored me completely and continued on laughing at the joke maknae had made.
I felt sad and disappointed,i don't mind having no as an answer but to be ignored.....they ignored me as if i was invisible.Isn't that too much?
Did i do anything wrong? Did i perhaps offended them during the interview just now?
I can't help but feel that i did something wrong.Maybe i should treat them to food later on and apologize to them for whatever i did that may have hurt them.
Well,I'm sorry.....
Goodnight.
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DAY 3
TO BE CONTINUED...
SORRY IF THIS CHAPTER IS CRAPPY AND BORING,PLEASE BEAR WITH ME FOR NOW...NEXT CHAPTER MAY BE MORE ANGSTY....SEE YA~
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VIXX FANFIC ANGST (N X VIXX MEMBERS)
FanfictionN...had always looked out for his members and also took care of them as a cheerful and quirky leader of Vixx but...he on the other hand didn't expect anything in return except for at least some respect and love from his fellow members. What his memb...
