Can't hate you || e.d

Good luck Sun

Y/n

None of us slept. I was totally tired, exhausted and worried. I was aggressive and felt like I was drowning.. Sam tried to comfort me. Even Charlie came over because she was worried as well but nothing helped me. No words, no tea, no medicine.. nothing helped me and my headache... Why was Sun doing that? That was the second time she just disappeared without telling anyone. Why couldn't she just stay at home or tell any of us what she was doing? Why didn't she care about her worried?

Ethan, Moon and the rest of the gang was looking for her... for hours.. he could've found her through her phone but she turned it off like she didn't want us to find her. I was so nervous that I was shaking. I was waiting all the time but they didn't call me and said that they found her.. why the hell was she gone for so long? Where was she? Did she have new friends that influenced her, did someone kidnap her? So many thoughts were going through my head and making me cray. She scared the shit out of me..

"Don't worry y/n. Ethan will find her and she'll be safe.." Sam said putting a hand on my shoulder. Oh no.. she wasn't going to be be safe if Ethan was going to find her. Charlie tried to comfort me as well but it wasn't going to work. I felt like I couldn't breathe.. "I'm scared Charlie.." I saw with a raw voice. I was so angry, worried and said at the same time..

She hugged me and I asked myself what I've done wrong. I should've done something when Moon told me about that boy... I hated myself so much in that moment... maybe it was my fault because I wasn't a good mom. I should've talked to her and realized that something was going on in her life. How could I've been so blind?

Moon

I've never been that worried in my entire life. I was so angry but anxious at the same time. First I thought she would come back soon like the last time so I didn't tell dad about Dean but she didn't come back and that made my anxiety grow. I want sure if I should tell him about it.. I just couldn't because he was going to kill me because I kept it to myself for so long.. we would've found her immediately if I would've told him earlier. I knew that he didn't even waste a thought of Dean because of the three weeks break.

Sun was so innocent and naive.. so helpful and big hearted, she was too caring and believing everything.. I was afraid that he was going to wash her brain and break her heart because that was very easy with Sun since she loved everything and everyone. He was too negative for her.. he was really a bad influence...

But actually.. he disappeared. I didn't see him for three weeks.. maybe they weren't even together. I wasn't sure so I couldn't tell dad and make him angry for nothing.

Dad was so angry that he didn't even talk and that was very bad. It showed how close he was to lose it.. she really pushed him to the edge. We told her endless times how careful she had to be, that she should always have her phone with her and that she shouldn't go anywhere without telling us before..

It was 3am. I wasn't even a bit tired. I was used to long nights.

She knew exactly how dangerous it was for her. She couldn't handle anything alone because these things were too dangerous for her but she couldn't understand that.. that's why dad sent a part of the gang to the east and west coast, some in and around the city and a few others around the block and town..

Y/n

I called Ethan hoping to get any updates. Well I hoped that he had only good new news. Or at least any news. This all was taking too long. "How is it going?" I asked him when he picked up. My voice was so broken and raw. "We didn't find her yet baby.." he answered and I closed my eyes. "Promise me that you'll be calm when you find her..". I knew that he wouldn't be able to control himself this time.. he would lose his patience.. she never disappeared for so long.. something definitely happened. He was just as worried as me.. so I could understand him at some point.