Can't hate you || e.d

Nightmares

Dean

I did what he said and felt a little bit better than earlier. Even that he cared made me feel better. I never knew how much I really needed it. For the first time I felt really comfortable. As if I wasn't so alone anymore.. and I was afraid that it wouldn't last long. What he said.. had such a big meaning for me even if it was something pretty simple or normal.. he never did that. He never cared even a bit so it was really special to me.

I reached out and grabbed one of my blunts. I was already way more calm than earlier but I needed to make sure that it would stay like that. As soon as I lit it up I felt the relief inside of me..

Sun

The beautiful dream I had about Dean turned into a nightmare that made me want to die instead of wake up again. He broke my heart and left me in a way that was worse than a nightmare.. with betrayal and lies. As if everything was fake.. everything around us started burning and I died crying in that fire.

It was stupid but it made me wake up with a high blood pressure.. I couldn't remember the details but when I woke up I was breathing heavily and sweating. I turned the bedside light on and the dimmer light made me feel a little more comfortable but it wasn't enough. The bad feeling in my stomach wouldn't disappear... something was wrong.. either with him or with me.

It was almost 5am and I didn't want to bother him.. I didn't want to wake him up but I had to. I called him even if he was going to be pissed.I just needed to check on him. Hearing his voice would be enough. He picked up and I blinked the tears in my eyes away. I wasn't going to cry for something so stupid.

"Sun?" he asked. His voice was really husky but he didn't sound like he was tired or like I woke him up. "Dean are you okay?" I asked immediately. He laughed softly and I felt some kind of relief. "I am.. but what's wrong with you..?" I took a deep breath ran my hand through my hair.. "Why aren't you sleeping?" I answered with a question.

"I never sleep and I was smoking. How about YOU?" he answered. I pulled the warm blanket up to my chin. "I had a nightmare.." I closed my eyes and tried to forget it. "Aw my baby.. that's why you called daddy?". I blushed.

"What was it about?" he asked and I had to smile.. "I don't want to talk about it. I only wanted to hear your voice and check on you because it felt so real.." my low voice made me so tired. It was so dark and comfortable that his beautiful voice made it even harder to stay awake.. it was like he was telling me a story when he was talking. He was speaking so slowly.. so chilled..

"I'm okay babygirl.. don't worry about me and no matter what you saw.. it was a nightmare so forget it." he said and my smile got bigger. I pulled my knees to myself. "I wish I could be by your side right now.." I said and his reply made me feel more comfortable. "If I would know that your dad wouldn't kill me, I would pick you up right now and never let you go.". I wanted to scream. That was so cute. I chuckled instead.

"You know what? He agreed to meet you.. the dinner you know?" I got exited with the thought of it.. "Wait what? So you mean your dad wants to cut me into pieces, grill me and eat me then with a nice salad and other stuff?" I laughed but I was too loud so I had to cover my mouth with my hand. "Stop! You're making me laugh!" I said whispering but still laughing.. "Good.." I knew he was smiling.. I could feel that. I sighed.. lovely sigh. "Do you feel better now?" he asked. "Yes.. thank you.." I answered and I felt so calm and comfortable.. just like I felt when I was laying on his chest a few hours ago..

"Are you sure babygirl?" his voice wasn't husky anymore.. it was quiet.. soft.. but seductive. I chuckled again. "Yes daddy.." I answered and he groaned. "You don't know what calling me like this does to me.."